People are of only use when they listen to your heart out. If they don’t. 
Make an art. 

Use social media to display it. 

Life is temporary. Live it before it is over. 

3am Thoughts

Happy Birthday to me 🎉😊

Other

Finally realizing that

Addiction

How do you stop gossiping?

Anxiety

Feeling very low for past couple of days....feel like getting lost somewhere..

Mood Disorder

is it possible to open up to someone new after being dumped?

College life is very special. School life is really special. Like really? Is it? I don't know. Because for me none of them is. Right now, I am studying in 3rd year of my college but to be honest, there is not even a single day when I can say that I have enjoyed it. My college days have been a life changer for me. The girl who used to be a nerd, a bloody hard worker is becoming sluggish. This was not the place where I wanted to go. I wanted to move out of my state but I couldn't even move out of my city. The only question that disturbs me right now is why I study so hard for my boards for coming over here. The students who come over here, my classmates most of them just wanna go into their parent's business so they don't attend college, there is no issue of attendance here and I attended classes in my last semester with a strength of only 2 students. No, the staff over here is not bad, only that was the reason I came here rather than going to the other colleges in my city, but my motivation to do anything in life is just terminating day by day. My 1st year was online and to be honest, I hardly have any friends over here except my old best friend. I feel like I am trapped in a cage. I never thought that life will be like this. I will become like this. My zeal to learn something is just terminating. If the circumstances wouldn't have been so bad, I could have gone to some place, it feels like everyone will do something in their life, and I will be left behind. I don't know what to say. Yes, I am comparing with everyone but I am so baffled right now. It feels like I am a burden on my parents, for me home is a cage, and college is a cage. I am so baffled to do anything in life. Like this girl had become so indecisive that she can't even take little decisions.

No, I don't want any sympathy. Maybe it's just that these feelings were trapped for 2 years and these things have just changed me. I won't say that they have changed me in a good or bad way but they have changed me. The phase when I feel guilty if I enjoy little bit.I have hardly smiled from inside since 2 years. Feeling guilty about everything, the anxiety attacks that I get when I am not able to breathe properly, my mouth becomes dry, and  I just wanna scream but my voice doesn't even come out have changed me. The only thing that is keeping me little relaxed these days is writing. The only reason I started blogging was to vent out.

Yes, I do feel like people might think that she wants to gain sympathy that's why she is writing or nothing so big has happened in her life, she is so weak. I don't know if I am portrayed as weak by confessing everything but the questions like am I good for nothing, Is this the same girlwhom I thought would be in college? just leave my mind unanswered.
It's just that sometimes I feel like that if I haven't been ever good in studies or studious that would have been better, at least I wouldn't have thought so much about this. I don't even know why I am confessing all this here, yes maybe I am too weak. I don't know.


What to do to get forgiveness for the sins which is done .... a thought which I got suddenly but unable to get the answer for this...

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