People are like drugs.
The more you pay attention to them, the more addicted you become.

is he/she a"healty"(good) person for you?

you dont know that, give it a try👍👍

how long have you known her??
because if it is that long it won't be a problem ig

Confusion

I’ve started to see why people take drugs . 

Have you ever had that vapor rub you put under your nose when your sick? Once you put it under your nose that barrier that was blocking you to breath is finally gone. But  don’t forget when you put it under your nose  it’s a temporary feeling...  It’s the same way with drugs. You take it and that barrier that’s blocking you is finally let down when you take that pill your happy and you don’t have to worry about reality . But then again it’s temporary. When that pill is done doing it’s job your back to reality , your back to that barrier that’s blocking you from escaping your thoughts, tragedies, and reality .

Vapor rub and drugs are both different but they both serve the same purpose which is to let down that  barrier that’s interfering with your life at that moment and give you a moment of relief and peace.

3am Thoughts

I wanna come over a addiction can someone please help


Addiction

I don’t want any one to support me. I think that I am just a dual personality person.
I am addicted to porn and masturbation. Because of this bullshit habit I have ruined my life. I do not enjoy anything. I feel disconnected with my family, friends, society, career.
I just got in it at age 11 but that is not the concern. It is just like I can not live without it. I have tried to escape from this habit but I doubt that I have really tried to quit it. Because after leaving for sometime I think that there is no problem. It’s normal and I do this bullshit.
Until now it was OK that it was a lone task. But now it’s growing .
I can leave anything for this. Now a days it is like that I am showing the wrong path to others. As I am addicted to a website called Omegle . There I did vulgar talks with other person. It is unknown that the other side person is mature or not. When I talk being genuinely I am dismantling the image of  my country and when I hide my identity and talked with false identity it is also where I am spreading vulgarity and doing wrong.
These deeds are done by me knowingly.
At this moment I dont think that I have become a good person.
I will never be the good person…

You can abuse me as I am spreading vulgarity in society and making it a negative.
It is also clear that it’s my dual personality that is doing wrong and then weeps crocodile tears and again do the wrong.

Mental Wellbeing

I love  porn and everything  with it My  boyfriend have sex with my best friend so I banged his family and friends  but I'm lonely 

Self Love

Finding angel to get addicted

Hello.
I'm new here and I'm going to attempt to talk about something that is currently happening in my life and is really hard to deal with.

A few months ago I cheated on my wife. I gave her chlamydia because I didn't use a condom. We got treatment for the Chlamydia and we're clean from it now. We've been going to couples therapy and individual therapy as well. 

I've been doing some digging within myself because I don't understand what led me to cheat but I think there's a connection to my past trauma. When I was 9 I was sexually abused for several years before my mom found out. Shortly after this trauma I began watching porn. Throughout my life I watched porn more and more. Watching porn and masturbating. This is how I've coped throughout my life. I'm 32 now and I can tell you that the porn has not stopped. I've been addicted for so many years. 

I went to therapy for the sexual trauma when I was 25 but we never talked about the porn addiction. Never thought to bring it up. I didn't think it was an issue. Fast forward to now and man, was I wrong. 

Dealing with this is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I love my wife and i did something so terrible. It's sometimes hard to feel like I'm not a horrible person. Something that hurts deeper is that she cannot be intimate with me. She's expressed that she needs to date other people. That she needs to feel good about herself again by dating other people. We don't share time or space anymore. When we're near each other the air is filled in silence. We have some moments of being comfortable with each other but that's currently rare. 

I feel that her dating other people is only pushing each other away further. I'm reaching out to her but she's pushing me away. I understand it's hard to forgive the thing I've done but it just feels like she's giving up on us and I'm holding on to a small thread. I know that she loves me but it's hard to watch her be with other people. I don't want her to fall in love somewhere else. I want us to try and rebuild what I've broken but she's not there yet I guess.

I feel like she's avoiding me. I feel that she's avoiding working on what's going on by seeing other people. 

I know this is a lot of information. It's a lot, what's going on in my life. I probably left some details out but i tried to give as much as I could. I feel like I got the majority of what's happening. I appreciate whoever reads this and responds accordingly. 

Please be kind. This is not easy and not easy to talk about. Appreciate you. 

Anxiety

Hello all,
I have a very weird addiction which I am not able to come out of.
I am an Indian living in the US in the 30s.
Married with kids.
I go to online chatting websites where I can chat in my mother tongue and then chat with guys who agree to verbally abuse me.
When I hear them verbally abuse me, I feel very very excited.
I enjoy it. 
Not sure if this is healthy or unhealthy.
or safe or unsafe.
Please let me know your thoughts.

How to people enjoy porn for hours i get bored in couple of minutes. I am person who believes in real time😅😅🤣

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