Past: There was this best friend of mine from 10 years whom i dated for an year.Then we broke up because of some family issues.
We met for the first time even after breakup when i was in her city for a day. There she got drunk, promised me that she’d change, do something about the issues, pleaded me for another chance. I believed all that. She made out with me that night. I thought it was out of love. Next day, when i joked around this topic…She was like, night’s gone. Lets just forget everything. I felt disgusted, used.
I started being anxious, slipped into depression where i had to take heart stabilizer pills due to anxiety palpitations.
Current: i am out of it all. I do miss her presence and its a big void left behind. I am getting better at not thinking about her much. I just at times feel so much lonely that i do end up crying like i lost everything in life. I feel like while keeping her, i lost everything else in life like friends, etc.and now i ended up losing her too.
Days go by when I don’t get a text from anyone.
Desperately, i even make help calls to close friends to keep checking on me once in a while due to my current situation.
I keep on craving to talk to any person, any friend. Sitting all alone at home, all this loneliness keeps on pushing me into overthinking.
I’ve even tried making friends online in various communities like gaming groups, dating websites, etc. Nothing seems to be working from past 2 weeks. Everybody else is like pretty much content and locked with their priorities.
How should i cope up with this unending loneliness thoughts?
Hey, sorry to hear that …making friends require efforts…do connect with your college or office friends…yes everyone can be content with their life’s. It work both ways…where do u stay at present
Thanks for replying back. This WFH situation has made things worse since i have to stay alone at home approximately for 10+ hours everyday (parents go to their respective jobs) - absolutely no human interactions.
When offices were open pre-covid times, human interactions there could have been a good distraction.
Well, i live near Delhi. and you?
Try online group games they help
Yes, its difficult in wfh. Do ask your office mates to meet up if possible. Yes i stay in delhi
It is really sad that it happens to you and I hope you will be fine. Try connecting people near you. Make friends who can check upon you time to time. I don’t know I am no expert but if you have siblings then you should turn to them because no one understands you better than them. And even care for you even if they don’t show it often.
Thanks for the kind words. I’ve tried to reach out to them already. One of them seems to genuinely care and check up on me once in a while.
You don’t need anybody to make yourself happy…you yourself is important first… Love yourself… Discover your self…ask yourself what is the last time you did something which made yourself happy? Take a break… and if you feel like you wanna talk to someone to share your thoughts…start journalling and list things that you are grateful for…life is short to worry about anyone and bleed for some one who doesn’t truly love you…let it go ✨✨✨✨ …you are beautiful in your own way…💜… always do remember it
Thanks for the kind words. I took a note of the journal thing and i will definitely try to list down the things i am grateful for.
I do feel happy in some small small things but i do feel scared the next moment too that loneliness is going to kick in. Trying to stay happy and satisfied.
Been there my dude… I wont say… Please don’t be sad… Only the people who have been through tragedy know what’s happening… Im glad you reached out to the community here… I wish you heal and get better
Thanks. I hope you have healed and made peace with the past.