PART 2
On 2nd June 2020 my ex boyfriend sent me this email and since then I havenβt heard from him. I have shared my part in the previous post do check my profile and read it. This is his part and the last words I heard from him.
βMujhe har jagah se Block kar Diya h tune isse sab thik ho jayega na tere life mai thik hβ¦!!!
Thik h Arohi yahi chahati h na tu ki isbaar ye relation sach mai khatam ho jaye toh phir thik h Kar le khatam ise khatam karke agar tujhe sach mai khushi milti h na toh phir thik hβ¦
Bas itna sochke dekhna ek baar apna sara ghussa side mai rakhke⦠Kya jo bhi jhagde hue ya jis wajah se aaj aisa situation aya h usme tune kuch nhi Kiya�?? Sab mairi galti h�?? Tune aisa kuch bhi nhi Kiya jisse mujhe ghussa aye ya mujhe hurt ho nd jisse jhagda hua ho�?? Maine aise hi bina koi wajah ke ghussa Kiya nd jo bhi Karna chahiye wo Kiya nd jo sab nhi bolna chahiye wo bola�??
Tu mujhe ye bol rhi thi main jab baat karne aya tab ache se baat karne as sakta tha na ki Arohi Kya baat nhi kar rhi h itne dino se, I miss you, chod aab sab chiz baat kar mujhse, aise baat karna chahiye tha but Maine itne dino baad bhi ake tujhse Questions Karna shuru kar diyaβ¦ Main ache se hi baat karne wala tha Maine decide Kiya tha maire Birthday mai wo mujhe wish karegi ache se nd phir main usse sorry bolke ache se baat start karunga phirseβ¦ Par tune mujhe kis tarike se wish Kiya jaise koi bahar wale ko bhi nhi karta phir mujhe bura nhi lagna chahiye mairi feelings hurt nhi hogi uske baadβ¦??? Hamara kitna bhi jhagda hua ho 1 baar aisa hua h kabhi ki jab tera birthday ya koi acha din ho tho Maine tujhe aise wish Kiya hoβ¦??? Nhi Arohi jab bhi aisa koi Day aya h Maine hamesha sab chize bhulke tujhe ache se wish kiya jisse tujhe us day ko bura na lage jo tere liye special hoβ¦
Mujhe bol rhi thi ki main nhi aya 1 month tak samne se baat karne toh tu bhi kounsa aye thi baat karne samne seβ¦!!! Sirf pyar ki jarurat tujhe h mujhe koi pyar nhi chahiye tujhseβ¦??? Main expect nhi kar sakta tujhse koi pyar ya main deserve hi nhi karta Tera pyarβ¦???
Ha maine bohot baar ghusse mai bohot kuch bola nd bohot kuch aisa Kiya jo nhi karna chahiye tha par wo sab chiz ghusse mai hua maine kabhi bhi koi chiz dilse ya jan buchke nhi kiya sab chiz ghusse ki wajah se hua mujhse nd wo har chizo ke liye main dilse hath jodke sorry bol rha huβ¦ I am really sorry har chiz ke liyeβ¦
Tujhe ache se pata h maire liye ye relation maira sab kuch h tu maire liye sab kuch h phir bhi tune hamesha mujhse maira sab kuch chinane ki try ki nd isbaar chinn bhi rhi hβ¦ Maine hamesha tujhe apne First priority pe rakha nd hamesha teri har chizo ko sabse pehle rakha h kitni baar apne gharwalo ko bhi wait karvaya h nd adjust karvaya h lekin tujhe hamesha First priority pe rakha hβ¦ Ek baar socha tune ki first priority pe koi kisiko kab rakhta hβ¦??? Kya koi insan har kisiko First priority pe rakhta hβ¦??? Nhi Arohi ek insan First priority pe usiko rakhta h jo uske liye sabse Important person ho nd uska sab kuch ho jaise tune apne Maa nd Baap ko rakha h bocz abhi wo tere sabse Important hβ¦ Tujhe maine jis din se hamara relation start hua tabse First priority pe rakha h bocz tu hamesha se maira sab kuch rhi h nd hamesha maira sab kuch rahegiβ¦
Nd tu mujhse maira sab kuch chinke mujhe bol rhi h main bohot khush rahungaβ¦ Itna hi samajh payi h mujhe itne salo maiβ¦??? Tujhe ye lagta h ki jo maira sab kuch h uske bina mai kabhi bhi ache se reh paungaβ¦!!! Apne hisab se tune apne ghusse mai soch liya ye sab chiz ek baar ghussa side mai rakhke sochti toh pata chalta ki tu jo bol rahi h wo kabhi nhi ho sakta tere binaβ¦
Main agar tujhe Abhi tere Maa ya Baap mai se kisi ek ko tujhse jabrdasti chin lu nd tujhe unse na baat karne du nd na hi koi relation rakhna du nd phir ye bol du ki tu bohot khush rahegi, koi itni badi baat nhi h, Sab bhulke move on karβ¦ Toh kya tere liye ye kabhi possible hogaβ¦!!! Kabhi nhi hoga Arohi bocz ye dono tere liye abhi tere sabse Important hβ¦ Waise hi maire liye tu maira sab kuch h nd main kabhi bhi iske bina ache se nhi reh paunga kabhi bhi nhiβ¦
Tu mujhe ye bol rhi thi na ki tu jhagde ki wajah se kantal ke relation khatam karne ki baat karti h⦠Bilkul galat bol rhi h tu ye chiz tune kitni baar mairi koi bhi galti na hone ke baad bhi relation khatam Karne ki baat ki h nd mujhe usse bohot jyada hurt hua h hamesha jise main kabhi bhi bhul nhi paya hu⦠Ye batana jab 1st time tune apni Maa ki baat sunke mujhse relation khatam karne as gayi thi tab usme mairi Kya galti thi Kya Kiya tha Maine aisa jo tu kantal ke relation khatam karne ayi thi�?? Jab 2nd time Teri behan ke ghar pe problem ki wajah se apne gharwalo ki baat sunke tu relation khatam karne as gayi thi tab mairi Kya galti thi usme tab Maine aisa Kya Kiya tha ki tu kantal ke relation khatam karne as gayi thi�?? Nd baki ke 1 baar jo tune khatam Karna chaha ye relation ko tab Teri galti nhi thi koi bhi�?? Is baar jo relation khatam kar rhi h isme Teri koi bhi galti nhi h sari galti sirf mairi h�??
Nd relation khatam karte waqt tune mujhe kaise treat Kiya nd kitna kuch bola ye tune dhyan mai rakha kabhi bhiβ¦ Mujhe ye sari chize sunke nd dekhke bura nhi laga hoga mujhe hurt nhi hua hogaβ¦!!! Feelings sirf tujh mai hi h hurt sirf tu hi hoti h mujh mai koi feelings nhi h mujhe hurt nhi hotaβ¦!!!
Ye dono baar relation khatam karne ke baad mujhe itna sab chizo ka bura laga tha nd itna hurt hua tha ki main apne ghusse pe control nhi kar paya nd sab chiz ghusse mai hua mujhseβ¦ In dono baar ke baad ek choti si chiz bhi hoti thi na toh main apne ghusse pe control nhi kar paya rha thaβ¦
Tune 1 baar bhi mujhe ake pyar se samjhaya ki Arun Maine jo Relation khatam karne ki baat ki wo galat thi mujhse galti se hua wo chiz but main aabse kabhi bhi nhi karungi ye chiz nd na hi kabhi chodke jaungi tumheβ¦ kabhi pyar se mujhe ye chiz bola akeβ¦??? 1 baar bhi agar Mujhe ake ye chiz bol Diya hota nd maire Mann se ye chiz nikal Diya hota ya try bhi Kiya hota na nikalne ki maire Mann se ye chize toh main har chiz bhul jata nd kabhi bhi is tarika react nhi kartaβ¦ Par tujhe toh kabhi bhi relation khatam karne ki baat Karna galat laga hi nhi hamesha tere liye ye option sahi rha hβ¦
Tu ye bol rhi thi ki tu abhi bhi maire bare mai soch rhi h ki main hurt hu isiliye Teri galti nikal rha hu baar baar taki mujhe thoda acha feel hoβ¦ Arohi agar sach mai maire bare mai thoda sa bhi soch rhi hoti na toh 1st time relation khatam karne ki baat karne ke baad jo mairi halat hui thi na wo dekhne ke baad dushri baar kabhi bhi ye relation khatam karne ki baat nhi karti he jante hue bhi ki tu mairi sab kuch h kabhi bhi dushri baar relation khatam karne ki baat nhi kartiβ¦
Ha mana jhagda hua jisme tune mujhe bohot kuch bola nd Maine bhi bohot kuch bola but relation khatam karne ki baat kaha se ati h bich mai shanti se baat karke bhi toh sab solve Kiya jaa sakta hβ¦
Kya aisa kabhi nhi hua tere sath ki tera tere ghar walo se bohot jhagda hua ya tujhe bohot hurt hua toh Kya kabhi bhi unse relation khatam karne ka socha tuneβ¦??? Nhi socha bocz wo tere liye sabse Important h waise hi tu Maire liye hβ¦ Mujhse maira sab kuch mat chin Arohiβ¦
Thik h tere pass wajah h relation khatam karne ke liye par Kya ye relation bachane ke liye koi wajah nhi h tere passβ¦ Itne saal sath mai rahe, Itne sare memories, Itne sare commitment jo hamne sath mai rehne ke liye kiye the, Itne sare kasam jo humne sath mai rehne ke khaye the, Wo sare sapne jo hum dono ne sath mai rehne ke dekhe the zindagi bhar, Hamara Pyarβ¦ Ye sab bohot important wajah h ye relation ko rakhne ke liyeβ¦!!! Plz main Abhi bhi bol rha hu ye relation khatam mat karβ¦
Main ye nhi bol rha hu ki mairi koi galti nhi h mairi bhi bohot sari galti h maine jis tarike se react Kiya ghusse mai nd jo sab bola wo bohot galat tha nd usse tujhe bohot hurt hua h nd Main un sab chizo ke liye tujhse dilse Hath Jodke Sorry bol rha hu Arohiβ¦
But Arohi Maine jo bhi bola nd Kiya ghusse mai kiya kabhi bhi koi chiz sochke dilse nhi Kiya na Tujhe insult Karna na tujhe gali dena wo sab ghusse mai Hua mujhse nd rahi baat tere character ke bare mai bolna toh Main tere character pe Q Karna toh bohot door ki baat h kabhi socha bhi nhi tere character ke bare mai faltu ka kuch bhi jo bhi bola ghusse mai maire muh se nikla nd goa wali chiz bhi Maine koi sochke nhi Kiya tha wo ghusse mai mujhse hua tha maine us waqt kuch bhi aisa nhi socha tha ki koi ladka ghusake bethi hogi ghar mai bas ghusse mai hua jo baad mai mujhe bhi samajh mai nhi aya aaj tak ki Kyu Kiya Maine aisaβ¦ Nd jo bhi dhamki di Maine wo bohot jyada jab pareshan Hua tab di aise hi kabhi dhamki nhi di ghusse mai hota tha main us waqt isliye muh se nikla wo sab uske liye Sorryβ¦
Par iska matlab ye nhi h ki isme mairi koi galti nhi h Arohi In sab mai mairi bohot galti h mujhe apne ghusse pe control Karna chahiye tha nd tujhe itna kuch faltu ka bolna nhi chahiye tha nd har chiz ke liye Main Dilse hath jodke tujhse maffi mang rha hu Arohiβ¦ I am really sorry har chiz ke liye mujhe maff Kar de Arohiβ¦
Main kasam khake bol rha hu jo aaj tak bola Maine kabhi bhi aaj ke baad kabhi bhi ghusse mai aisa kuch bhi nhi karunga jo galat ho ya aisa kuch bhi nhi bolunga jo galat ho apne ghusse pe control kar lunga aage se tujhe kabhi aisa kuch dekhne nd sunne ko nhi milega jo bohot jyada galat ho bas mujhse maira sab kuch mat chinke jaa Arohi jisse main kabhi normal na ho pauβ¦ Jiske wajah se main kabhi bhi khush na reh pau plz Arohi I am sorry for everythingβ¦
Mujhse bhi bohot sari galti hui h Arohi jiske liye main dilse sorry bol rha par mujhe mairi galti ki Itni badi punishment mat de Arohi jisse main zindagi bhar marr marr ke jine pe majboor ho jau plz Arohiβ¦
Lekin iske baad bhi agar tujhe ye lagta h ki ye relation khatam kar dene se teri life mai sab thik ho jayega nd tu hamesha khush rahegi toh phir thik h Arohi khatam kar de ye relation but itna yaad rakhna ki decision sirf aur sirf tera h maira nhiβ¦ Aisa decision na maira kabhi ho sakta h nd na hi kabhi hoga maine hamesha sab kuch thik karke normal rehne mai bharosha rakha h nd hamesha usime bharosha rakhungaβ¦
Mairi taraf se kabhi bhi ye relation na khatam hua h nd na kabhi bhi hogaβ¦ Tu mairi sab kuch thi nd hamesha rahegiβ¦ Main wait karunga ki tu mujhse baat kare nd sab chiz phirse normal ho hamara relation phirse normal ho nd ache se rahe hum donoβ¦
Aaj ke baad main tujhe kabhi koi msg ya call nhi karunga jisse tujhe pareshani ho ya tujhe irritation ho mairi taraf seβ¦ Itne dino se samne se msg call kar rha tha uske liye Sorry aaj ke baad kabhi nhi karungaβ¦ Ho sake toh mujhe unblock kar dena agar kabhi koi kaam ho toh baat ho sake baki bina koi kaam ke main aaj ke baad tujhe koi msg ya call nhi karunga samne se jisse tujhe koi pareshani hoβ¦
Agar tu chahati h ki main hamesha aise marr marr ke rahu toh phir thik h tujhe jo Karna ho kar Arohi nd khush rehβ¦ Lekin main kabhi bhi ye relation khatam hone ke baad khush nhi reh paunga maire pass hamesha marr marr ke rehne ke alawa aur koi option nhi rahega Arohi par thik h agar tu ye karne se khush rehti h toh phir thik h Arohiβ¦
I love you Arohi hamesha yaad rakhna ye chizβ¦
I am sorry har chiz ke liye Maine jo bhi galat bola nd galat Kiya uske liye ho sake toh mujhe maff kar denaβ¦
Main hameha wait karunga tera mujhse baat karne ka nd phirse relation ache se shuru karne ke liyeβ¦ Main wait karunga tera hameshaβ¦
Dhyan rakhna Arohi apna and apni tabiyat kaβ¦
Khush rehna hameshaβ¦
Byeβ¦β
This were his last words to me and I still havenβt talked to him. I still miss him I still love him but I guess itβs better for both of us to stay away and heal. I love you Arun. I will always love you but will never tell you this.
See Yaar, if u still think you guys have futureβ¦you should get back togetherβ¦n should tell your parents about relationshipβ¦but you donβt hopesβ¦then ye Sab Kuch yahi khtm hua yahi achhaβ¦I know theses things, I have been thereβ¦ relationship me Sab Kuch chalata re fights , insecurities β¦but agar tumhe malum hey ki ye person tumhare liye Kuch bhinkar sakata then wahi hey Sab Kuchβ¦ha Mene bhi rulaya hey kisiko, me bhi block hua huβ¦but we both are now at good placeβ¦so thoda time lagega Sab Kuch heal hone meβ¦but time will heal everything okβ¦so donβt worryβ¦ atleast ab tumhe parents are jhut Nahi bolna padegaβ¦n donβt worry there is always better personβ¦who is going to find youβ¦ until then enjoy your life and improve yourselfβ¦bas oxygen Lete rehanaβ¦Be Happyπ
Thank you Prasad. Your last line made me smileπ oxygen leti rahungi main. Thanks again
No issuesβ¦we all been thereβ¦so here to help each otherβ¦
How r u feeling now??
Much much better. After I talked about all the things, it feels really good and I am trying to heal and stay positive. Thank you so much for asking Prasad. How are you?
Am also healing yaarβ¦going through same phaseβ¦but mene aapke baare me read kiya to laga haβ¦me akela nahi huβ¦n hopes to bilkul nahi khona chahiyeβ¦
I guess hum sab kabhi na kabhi ye phase cross krte hai and yes hooes kabhi nhi khone chahiye. I strongly believe that jo hota hai ache k liye hi hota haiβ¦hum shayad abhi realize na kre par in future it will all make sense I guess. Stay happy and positive bas thatβs all we can do.
tanisha @tanishhaa13
Iβm telling you if this relationship was toxic, giving you more grief than happiness then MOVE ON. Remember, Nothing is permanent. Every damn thing has a replacement. Ik it is hard to move on for you. Please move on, yβll find someone far better than him. After reading this post, he sounds creep.
Yes I am trying to move on, it will take time but I know that I would be happy and will find someone who can understand me, respect me and love me.
Yesβ¦there is always better personβ¦what u say letβs know each other moreβ¦??
Ya sure. How are you feeling today? And where are you from? I am a Gujarati, living in Ahmedabad, Gujarat.
Ohh greatβ¦I am from Maharashtra Puneβ¦If you would like to talk then we can connect on Instagramβ¦Prasad Banur is my nameβ¦
Heyβ¦
Hey sorry for not replying earlier my phone broke and I got it today.