Part 1 
I’m feeling better I guess, I am still filled to the brim with emotions regarding her, still yearning and wishing she would just come back into my life.
I think that since we split ways I just couldn’t help but try and get her back, and maybe that was my mistake that ultimately pushed her away.
I don’t exactly know what the purpose of this app is but I just want to write down and share anonymously my story … our story

I met my love for the first time on the 23 February 2020 and then I was going through a lot of things and I when she made her move I … didn’t show interest . Shit some memories I can’t help but smile. And that was that for some 5 months after which by pure chance we met again but this time I was the one that showed interest.

Breakup

I want to hold her so badly, but I and she are so far apart that she has a lot on her mind, but she's seriously troubled, and I want her back on my relationship

Hey guys…i want an advice regarding my breakup it happened 1.5 years ago but still j miss her daily and cant sleep bcoz of my overthinking we arent in contact right now and also i dont feel talking to anyone and if i do  my interest lasts 2-3 days only like i see no way ahead wht should i do and what not in the day i try to keep myself busy but as soon as dark occurs my daily overthinking or sadness kicks in does some has any suggestions please

I'm in love with someone who is so precious for me i love her so much and she also love me so much but the problem is she is never ready to listen she is always like why should i say sorry i don't say sorrt to anyone and when i said her that I'm angry with your this behavior she was like ki get lost types like so rude if a do something wrong i say sorry and i try to fix that but she was like get lost types I'm so nervous right now and 1 day i said her don't pressurize me please again she was like you have to do i don't know i know i have done lots of mistakes but all this things make make me cry and i feel pain in heart she is so rude in so many things she need to understand this help me please 

Love

Someone please help me 😭 recently I broke up with my girlfriend and she is the one who broke up with me. Actually her family came to know about our relation her family did not beat or threaten her but  her mother told to promise her that she won't do anything bad and she will focus in study . Really 🥲 for one promise she forgot our 2 years relationship . Does she even care for my feelings I loved her so much . And still now I kept begging her to stay with me i can't move on its very hard 😭 . I m not that kind of guy who keeps relation just for show off . When I am in relation with a girl she becomes a part of my life I can share everything with her those i can't share with my family members or friends she just mean a lot to me. She says that she will come after sometime with me . Seriously am i just a toy whenever she wants to be in relation she will and whenever she don't want she will just breakup. Now I know she doesn't care about my feelings but I want to be with her i am begging for her love 😭😭😭😭i can't just forget 
Please help me 🙏🙏🙏
I just want a person with whom I can share my feeling 💔💔💔💔😭😭🙏🙏

I am obsessed with breastfeeding feelings. 

It all started a year ago It was so normal in my life. There was one girl I liked. I want to be with her. But she has a boyfriend already i was feeling attached to her. After a year she broke up. I try to tell her I liked you more than friends earlier too but she always says like you are important to me i like you. 



She always let me hug and touch her. Around waist and kiss on cheeks. Or sometimes she sleeps on my lap. It was hard for me to not feel like friends. I liked her for a year. In the middle of this i always do her work whenever she needs me even in little things. Buy stationary buy other things or she wants to go anywhere i always go with her. Always say yes to her all things. 



She even tells me why you always say yes to all  my things. I can't answer that. I started caring for her so much i was so attached to her. 

After a year her boyfriend ditched him and she broke up. After a month I tell her by writing a note. And share her she reads then she says I can't be with you. Like my family will not allow me to marry you. She says I am Christian our religion is not the same but I tell her i can change it for you because I really love you. 



I get irritated and lost now i give her one week to answer that she says she only wants to be friends with me. And i say i cannot be like this sorry after that she didn't talk and i also but i really miss her. But my friend told me the reason why she didn't like me. He said she says you are a numb person like you don't enjoy anything just be like silent and calm you are just boring. It hurts me i always try to make her smile and make her feel cared. I was so devastated hearing this i am so bored I started feeling sad.



I feel hate in myself. Frankly I'm not able to feel confident about myself now. I become so low then i download a few apps and start chatting with online people. I was talking to one girl at night things get out of control and i ask for Breastfeed suddenly i feel like a baby who wants to just feel safe in someone's arms and latch to breast. I start chatting with her She shows me breast we do like Breastfeed roleplay. I never felt so cared for before and so loved. I kinda feel safe when she says me come latch to me baby. I became like a child and started chatting with her while seeing her breast i was feeling I was sucking her nipple. 



After that I became obsessed with the Breastfeed thing. I always felt for someone to chat with me online show breast and Breastfeed me. But they just talk for one or two days. Then they are gone. I talked to married women also and did things that i think i shouldn't have done. But now I have become addicted to breasts and chatting online. Seeing breast or breastfeed via VC. 



Right now I talk with women I think she likes me and i also start liking her. She shows me breasts too and says I love you. But she has a job where she can't be with me much online when she is not with me. Again i feel for Breastfeed now i look for someone who has real milk in the breast. But I feel i am bad i am doing wrong i also don't know if she loves me or not. By thinking all of this i feel stuck and end up asking 1000 girls about breastfeeding and always look for that who have milk and Breastfeed me online or real. I become so obsessed it's affecting in real life i can't able to do my work i just chat with people online i am stuck in this loop for one year. I can't get out i feel so guilty and bad. 



What should i do please tell me

Addiction

My girlfriend while breaking up said she'll be friends with me.I never wanted that to happen because i loved her from the bottom of my heart(Infact I started off with this relation by saying that i wish to marry you!!).Nevertheless, I avoided contacting her coz it took a toll on me. Every now and then when she drops a msg i get anxious, and start feeling that she might actually want to get back (Which is a cooked up theory by me). Whenever, we talked after the breakup she seemed perfectly fine,while i used to go pale!!Moreover, she brings up moments (not necessarily nice) from our relationship casually!! I dont understand why would anyone who themselves broke up would bring it up again an again? I feel i am sinking in this thoughts!!!I cant sleep when i think about her!!cant stop doing that as well!!

So there’s this girl I met since Aug 2021 and we’ve been talking, hanging out and more. Celebrate special holidays together as well. Whenever we are together, happiness flows really well from together and we always had great time. In between we are on and off, got into small argument but yet we solved it out like nth happened. So as time flies by she said we are just friends but I told her we are way past that margin already, though your words said we are just friends but actions clearly said we are more than that. Which she got quiet and shut for a bit. But we still ok and now into 2022 things began to change a bit. We act like couples yet we aren’t, yeh I know it’s confusing but it is. So past last week she said “i tried not to meet or talk to you but guess that didn’t worked” so we went on dates/hangout/cuddle for last week 3-4 days plus I helped her with her HW one day. Now its been again almost a week she acting like a stranger to me, even I call she would rarely pick up. Last night we talked and she sound like complete stranger and the way she asked me was as if I am IRS needing a reason to give why I call. 😔 

Lonely

Okay, things are getting worse.
I think its not meant to be. Only, thing I know is I am unable to defend myself I have no explanation of all the mistakes I am doing. And some how I am making her feel that I don't care about her. 
This is disheartening and worse thing is even I am unable to show. I think my words are more caring than my actions. I don't know whether one day It will be all worth it, we will be living our happy life together or one day it will end up by me regretting whole life with my silly actions.



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