Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Pandemic has changed my life,my perspective, my way of thinking. It had got into depression. My friends, who had been with me for 12 years have changed. It did hurt a little but I lost trust in everyone around. I was not been able to share what I feel and what I actually want. I have been crying alot these days and the past few months. No one knows about it, not even my mom. My mom is being indifferent to me these days. I can’t help it. And I don’t feel comfortable around my friends, they don’t consider me as their friend anymore and calls me only when they require. But I am moving on. As days went by, I came to a realization that there was only one friend who was with me that I took no notice. She was there to listen to me. She understands me. She was there for me. But now I am alone again. Not because she left me but because she is ill and I don’t want her to feel stressed so I don’t talk much to her. Being alone, sometimes it’s nice. But being alone even when people are around you, kills you deep within. I am having difficulty in believing in myself and other. I don’t have trust on me anymore. It’s so stressful