One of the hardest things you will ever have to do, is to grieve the loss of person who is still alive.

3am Thoughts

What do you do when you are bored?

Insomnia

Just write a shitty poem what else you have to lose 

I feel like i want to cry, but the tears aren't coming. And the reason i want to cry is because i don't feel like studying at all. But it's the most crucial time to study in my life. For my exams are approaching, and i am need to study for my competitive exams. Today i gave a test in my tuition, amd it went horrible. Everyone in my class thinks I'm the most intelligent person, just because i scored well in my grade 10. But cant they understand that people change, i used to study so much way back then. Now I'm in grade 12, and I can't even focus for more than 45 mins. So when someone asked me if my answer matched in the test, and i said no, because genuinely it did not match. That person was like , " really?!" And i said "yeah" and she again and again asked me really really, YOURS DID NOT MATCH? I dont know why, but i wanted to curse that asshole, when I'm saying it didn't match can't you fucking understand, are you deaf or what. But obviously i can't say that. Whatever i think I ranted enough, now i should study (or at least try to) 
(Ps. I wish i could have harry styles hug me and tell me don't worry about it everything's going to be just fine) 

Stress

I'm the only one who feels lonely 

Lonely

im always throwing up my food cuz i know i will fail my test and i really doesnt have anything to rely on, so this is the only way that can make me become a person who have a means for life

Body image

I just feel alone and lonely . And my anxiety is at peaks. I am currently under meds for anxiety and depression but I feel like no one understands me or cares. My exam is in a week n I wish it gets postponed.. There is a lot of discussion about it getting postponed but I know it wont get postpones .I dint feel the need to vent to strangers for a year now but I feel it is required for me . Nothing is getting in my head and I feel useless. 

Depression

Bachpan se Dream thaa aple liye RE lene ka company ne usko splendor bna ke saara sapna hii tod diya. 

Hi! This is just a general reminder post one could say. 2 years back, I proudly used to claim that love isn't a thing for me, like it would never happen to me because it never did. But then I met the one. I didn't realise i was falling until he decided to just cut me off. We knew we liked each other but 'love' was yet to be discovered. But he didn't even give me the time to realise, to tell him how much i was in love with him. I really don't like saying this but unfortunately he was my 1st love, like genuineee!! It really took me a lot to come out of that pit. I would just cry thinking what went wrong for days but not let anyone know that i was this miserable. My bestie helped me a lot through her 'free-theropy'. But nothing seemed to work for me, a part of me would still have hopes of us getting back, until i decided to stop! He moved on, he found a new girl just a week after we stopped talking, he never tried to make things work then why should i keep a single thread of hope towards him? He didn't deserve me! Forget about him, I deserve the best i would say, and he was a trash. No, i don't hold grudge against him, it's just he didn't even deserve me to throw him a smile on and i wasted almost a year crying over that person! 
I have healed. I smile a lot these days and I am happy. That's all what matters ig, no?✨

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