One of my guy  friend blocked me 2 yts back.y saying that he is deactivating account [he was mis understaood me ].
But then I mesg him with our account  after so jana tricks he replied. So I messaged him less from that day  like thrice in year. He never messaged me first even before blocked account. 
Last time I wished him on Diwali i ask him how are u doing then he also ask same to me then I didn't reply (i want him to wait. Curious)

My ques. is should i  wish him on his birthday pn 29thjune (abhi to bahut time h)still .. I don't want to look desperate and available...
Wat to do.

Dont wish him , let him be at his pace there are better things to do in life

Remember there's a reason why you're not on good terms.. 
Also you should move on.. 

Confusion

i don’t really know what is wrong with me or if there is anything wrong me. i will be completely fine during the day and then at night everything will just come crumbling down i will cry for absolutely no reason. i feel as though i can’t breathe i get all hot i don’t know what. i don’t have any reason to be sad i have a relatively good life. i have a good relationship with my parents and my school friends. even at school o will get scared to do the simplest things, i can’t concentrate and i feel as though i am constantly overthinking. i will think about killing myself but ik i won’t actually do it i don’t know. i feel bad because i know there are people going through much more worse things.



Know a day i am getting super boared even to watch phn . Can anyone suggestion to watch in YouTube 

Exhausted

I am scared of losing control ￼

Anxiety

Im 19 , I’m in university, and I’ve never been in a relationship. I don’t think there’s a nothing with that. I don’t feel compelled to change that. When I was younger , I was unattractive even for my self. I’m not bitter. 
But now in uni, I like a guy. But I keep trying to convince myself that I shouldn’t like him. He’s nice and he’s shown interest. I don’t know if he likes ne or is just nice. He’s shown in interest but idk if it’s just sexual or he really likes my person, but I don’t allow my self to think about liking him. I prefer telling myself that’s not real because the idea of a relationship is very scary. I hate being vulnerable but I also hate that over analyse every feeling have I have. At this rate I’ll never be in any relationship ever.

Love

Tu jaha jaha chalega Mera saya saath ho ga

3am Thoughts

I can’t bring myself to trust or love anyone else because I’m scare that they’ll do what you did to me and the worst part is, you have no idea just how damaged you left me. 

Life Update 
Today I feel like everything is going wrong in my life. I don't know why I am feeling what I am feeling but yeah life update that it sucks, it sucks to be the loser waiting for others to choose, I recently joined college for my higher studies. I thought I would make nice friends and can chill but now it is feeling like a hopeless dream. There is something wrong with our group I don't know what sometimes I feel like yeah this is what I want and sometimes I feel like why I got involved with them, one friend of mine is good to us in college and acts like we don't exist after college. One friend of mine whom I had a crush on is a total weirdo,  I don't why the heck I even have a crush on him and someone who is reading this please please tell me how can I get over this toxic crush thing, I don't want to feel like this about him but can't help it... ah please help, I know he is such a self-conceited person who thinks that he is best, and whatever he says we should follow. most importantly he differentiates ( So basically there is one more girl in our group younger than us, she is a crazy ass person, and when I say that I mean it, a total weirdo) so he thinks we don't treat her better ( which I try my best to do!!!) and he is good to her like in group when she texts he replies and when anyone else texts he doesn't, previously he used to send me meme on Instagram and when I send him, he doesn't open it for days. I think even when we are in the group he ignores me.... but still I don't want to hurt him.... other friends of mine are very pissed at him but still, I don't want him to feel awkward around us.
Someone, please help, like really help/ suggest how can I get over this toxic crush of mine.
Thank you 
To whoever had read till here. 


How do I make friends? How should I enjoy the way a group of friends doo? How do I become confident while speaking? How should I stop feeling depressed? How ..how ..and how...???? My life SUCKSSSS..How can I find a girl who'll be there with me as I'm soo un-confident while speaking??? Will I even get a girl..
I wish God doesn't create anyone like me in future...A failure, an introvert someone who hasn't even touched a girl due to his lack of confidence & on top of that a 27yr old Virgin boy ... I hate myself 

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