one of my friends gets triggered very easily. i triggered her but i don't feel bad
actually, i don't feel much emotions. it's as if i'm closed up i guess.

nah ................. u aren't emotionless for sure 
U just don't know how to express ur feelings and that know 
U just trigger them for fun so it's okay 
just try keeping urself busy 

still not okay 
DM
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Communication has to be two way. When someone says something, it is so important to realise who is saying it and with what intent. Knowing that you are a friend, they should sort of give you the benefit of doubt that you mean well probably...

Misunderstanding

I love how people will talk to you as they support you but in an instant they'll talk about you behind your back and then come back to you like nothing happened....Like wtf, you think you can come back and act all normal as if nothing ever happened...yeaaaaaa no. I shouldn't have fake friends with fake smiles. I want fun, messy, honest, and crazy friends are who they say they are. I wanna make bad decisions and have you cut my hair because its hot and why not!?!?!?! I wanna sneak out late to go get food!!!! Anyone else with me....? 😞

Friends

So having trouble with friendships. Two of my "homies" we met a week ago. And there was nothing to talk about. I mean there are hell lot of things to talk we are in adulthood we have don't meet often and there's always things to talk about but all we did was talk about what to eat then talk about how the food was here and there convos and just went home. Ugh it's soo draining It just feels like dragging this all and it's soo exhausting and I'm the kind of person who can't really pretend who's straightforward and the other friend is an expert at pretending and won't act like anything is wrong and then I will have to take the blood on my hands and I don't wanna give the friend that satisfaction that I left. So m just gonna keep pretending 

When you start a little group, but that group starts to exclude you. The way things go I guess. 

3am Thoughts

I’ve always been that friend that everybody takes for granted but they don’t pay too much attention too. For example, if I’m in a group of 3 or even 5 people in always the one that gets left out. I think I’m like the therapist friend. But the thing isn’t that’s the only thing my friends see. If inebriate of my friends was invited to a party, they always take my other friends to Ben their plus one, they never ask me. I get that I mightn’t not be the most fun friend to go to parties with but it really rips out a piece away from me every time that happens. I’m usually okay with it because I don’t really notice it that often but lately I just can’t help thinking that I’m kinda alone.

For the last few years, I'm just losing people. I lost all of my close friends, they just simply walked out of my life or cut off. I'm detached from my family already, haven't been in any relationship for the last 7 years.

Everytime I was close to being in love, it ended up in being abandoned and I was treated like shit.

I do have online friends to talk to, but I don't have any irls, someone I could rely on, meet or hug or spend time with. Even the few irls I had probably don't seem to be as close to me as I feel they are.

Even the ones that I still have in my life just don't care enough or give a fuck about me. I'm the last one to be considered, plans with me are forgotten easily, I've never been appreciated, neither been acknowledged nor assured about how they feel about me.
Most of the times it feels like everyone talking to me is doing a favour only and I find it hard to trust people now.

I want to have real friendships, like we see the "goals", hanging out together, spending time, making memories, travelling and doing all the warm things together, making pacts or bucket lists. I want to be loved too and I feel like I'll never find love, ever.

**TLDR : Everyone I've trusted or been close to has literally disappointed me in every possible way. I've never been someone's priority**

Hey ! How do you guys deal with friendship that is one side effort ! I feel my friends they don’t really make effort to meet up every time I’m the one who is planning to go out and meet and it’s really bothering me when I see them they meet up with others! I’m kind of stopped asking them and planning anymore ! I stopped doing this with my other friends too! And I don’t have that much friends. 

Idk but I don't have any friends...is it just me ? Well I thought that some of my "so called friends" were my real friends but now i realise they weren't..and this happens like every single time! I try to make them so happy I do whatever is in my power ..in the end they use me and just go

I’m feeling like almost everybody is not being a real good friend to me, I’m realising they are not as good friends as I am with the other people, this makes me sad

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