 Okay. Tomorrow I’m going to start day 1 of trying to starve myself as much as possible. I do not care what you say, it is my choice and I’m going to do it. 

I will do my research but I’m still staying on my choice. 

And you’re not supposed to react like that and just let me be without having that response? If you didn’t like this post then why comment on it?😂 

Affirmations

Only if I  could disable corny rambling from my now and me feed 😐

Anxiety

Got better for months like fuck I was happier healthier but I lost it again and I can’t talk about it and I’m trying to lose weight after bulimia…. I have so much to focus on but I feel like I’m in an endless hopeless cycle I wanna stop doing this again I don’t wanna go through it again

Bulimia Nervosa

idk if this makes a difference but im mid teens and recently ive been struggling with food,  i have a list of banned foods and ive spend most of my days thinking about foods that i cant eat, its planning meals and what times of day im allowed to eat.  my current limit for calories is between 500-700 im trying to go less but i end up giving up. this last week ive been staying away at a friends house and ive had to just eat all the food ive been given, no restricting. ive put on weight.  ive nearly gained all the weight ive lost from restricting back. so obviously its started again.  the restricting.  ive been trying so hard to restrict.  ive only been eating half the amounts of food given or none at all.  but today i ate some cake.  im not allowed to.  i feel like purging over one piece of cake but ive barley eaten today and that piece of cake was full of calories.  i feel like ive failed. i could of gone without it easy. i feel like a monster and im overwhelmed with guilt i could literally cry.  i hate the way i look.

Body Dysmorphia

I have suffered from binge eating in hiding for 2-3 years. I've been out of it since the last 6 months but I have instances here and there.

Lately, it's been happening a lot. I'm afraid it might relapse. Any advice? Pls help. 

Eating Disorder

I had a really bad habit of eating junk food in the evening. I had been trying to change it for months but always said to myself 'tomorrow, not today' 
So finally I gathered courage and started to quit this habit. It's only 2nd day and it's not easy but I will surely put an end to this. 💗

Healthy Food

binging then purging, overexercising, not eating all day, looking in the mirror too often :(

I have been on a "cut" or let's say a "diet" since quite some time now. And there have been times where I just go all out, binge 5000 calories in one go and regret it later. Earlier, I used to just live with it, the guilt of eating over my calorie intake and that was fine. I would go back to my normal intake the next day. But since the past few weeks another sort of guilt has taken over me. I have started to purge my food out, intentionally. It's happened with me 3 times now. After the first 2 times, I promised myself that I would not do it again. But I did. And the worst part is that the 3rd time, it was pre-planned. While I was binge eating desserts and what not, the thought "oh i'll just vomit this out later" came to my mind. That is where it got tricky. I did not vomit because I was feeling sick. But I had pre-planned it that Yes I would stuff myself with food and then just simply go and vomit it. I got these feelings only because I have been feeling extremely lean since the past 2 weeks. I wake up in the morning and see myself in the mirror, leaner than the day before, no bloating. So, when i was eating, this "fear" took over me that oh god I will not feel lean tomorrow morning and that i'd gain weight. But I still needed to eat the food I was eating. I couldn't stop myself from eating, it was like my mind knew i should stop but my hands just kept feeding me, even though I was completely full. That's when, when i was stuffing my face, I planned that okay i'll just vomit it out. And I did. I am not proud of it at all and I hope that I live upto the promise I made to myself this time.

Mental Health

I think I am hungry right now! I guess so

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