Okay, things are getting worse.
I think its not meant to be. Only, thing I know is I am unable to defend myself I have no explanation of all the mistakes I am doing. And some how I am making her feel that I don't care about her. 
This is disheartening and worse thing is even I am unable to show. I think my words are more caring than my actions. I don't know whether one day It will be all worth it, we will be living our happy life together or one day it will end up by me regretting whole life with my silly actions.



LGBTQ

So there is a girl I have been loving since years. We were never in so called "relationship", but we were very close. We used to share everything. There was another boy who she used to call close friend,but she used to comfort me by saying that he is never gonna be taking my place(I was always insecure about).
Then one fine day I got busy for work for almost 3 months(which I already informed her that please if you need me please communicate properly). I used to work for almost 18 hrs a day at that time and at the same time my grand father was on his death bed. I tried my level best to be there for her. When I used to ask her if everything is fine...she used to say "yeah all good"(wanted me to understand by myself,  she told I was so busy that I did realize what she was going through). At this time the other guy, used this opportunity to get close to her and comfort her. She literally told me you were not there when she needed me the most, but at that time I was so much occupied(I would have been there if I would have been communicated).

Now there are in relationship,  and she wants me to be there as her friend.
She says that she misses me a lot and no body can ever understand her the way I understood her. But I can't see her with anyone else(especially not him). It just hurt a lot. I miss her a every day, I miss her like anything.... Just don't wanna loose her.


Please do let me know what should I do, it's been 7.5 years we being together. It's just so hard to let her go...







Relationships

You know what, things goes right for a few weeks and suddenly I again start feeling bad about, everything around. I start to hate myself and the decision that I took. One year back she told me that her parents are seeing someone for her and now she had to decide between me and that guy. I don't know but I told to think about it on her own and take a decision which she felt was correct. I know I kind of left no choice to her. I didn't really stopped her from going away. I still remember those days when she used to ask me what she should answer her parents. She used to cry a lot. At that time I didn't realized that all these things are going to be very crucial. One day she calls me and then we decide to get apart. I still can't remember what day it was how it happened. And why it happened. It's been a year, she is engaged and we guys are still friends. I don't know i can't stay away from her. I love her and I know that. I don't know if she has moved on but I am still into her and it really hurts that she is not with me. She loves someone else now and all those things that we had planned for us is theirs now. I miss her so much. But I can't tell this to her because I know that will break her and then she won't talk to me. She was in love with me once and if she still loves me even a little then she can't see me like this. She has totally moved on. I am happy for her because you know that guy with whom she is engaged now is also very good. And they guys make good pair. But I am sad for myself because now it's not me with her. The reason that we are not together is maybe because we come from different religions. I miss her. I will miss her all my life. 

Im not feeling good as im engaged to a girl and i love her so much she loves me too but her past physical relationship constantly comes to my mind which i know is wrong and i read all posts still it comes to mind ..how to get rid of that i dont know 😮‍💨

Guys... Help me... 
There's a girl with me... From last 8 months we r doing the same job... She always utter the line "I love you" Just like we r in a relationship.. Nd tends to be my girlfriend..like being Textfully clingy..like jealous a bit when I talk about other girls...But when I seriously ask about it.. She says she is not sure now.. That she loves me or not....Its really confusing... I m investing a lot of time on her... M I wasting my time?? 
what should I do?? 


Confusion

Frustrated

for context i had a friend for 3 years, i always had that feeling that i loved her but i just didnt care about it i guess, after i changed to another school and we stopped talking, i guess we really only understand that we really care for something after we lose it.

I just cant stop thinking about her, everytime i get a notification i hope its her, everywhere i go i hoper i see her. I try forgetting about her, sometimes i do, only to end up thinking about her again. i also was with someone else last year thinking it would help, only to be awake at night wishing it was her laying beside me, we stopped seeing each other, and i dont think about it anymore, after 5 years and a break up its only her i think about. i was just stupid to let her go. i never told anyone about this, today i found this site and saw an oppurtunity to say it. whoever reads this, i honestly dont know what there is to reply to this, i just wanted to let it out, thanks. 

Overthinking

I have been going to college from last August but I am still struggling to make friends.
So what happened is that we had offline online hybrid online classes from september 2021. Due to personal reasons I could only go to college by the end of October. By the span of nearly 2 months, most people had already created their own friend groups. My roommate also arrived on the same day as me, so I thought maybe we could be friends. For the first 2 days she talked to me a bit.... not alot....yet still I was fine with her. Then one fine day she decides she wants to go for clubbing with one of our mutual friends. I was not really interested, hence I decided not to go. She went out at 6 pm and finally reached at 11 pm. When she came back, I realized she didn't go for clubbing as she had a lot of shopping bags with her. I felt a bit bad because she didn't call me but then I decided to let go of it. But from that day onwards she started avoiding me. I didn't know what to do. I knew a few other people in college but still I wasn't close to anyone. I tried talking to other people but still I felt like intruding them. And then I got sick. This is the point when i felt most lonely. I didn't feel like doing anything and just felt sad. I did recover within a few days but after this incidant I felt even more lonely. We had several functions in college such as fresher's party and diwali celebrations where I just went alone. Loneliness hit more hard when I saw other people sitting and having fun. I really tried interacting with more people but I just felt likr intruding other's friendship groups 
This experience has left me permanently scarred and i just don't even feel like interacting with anyone anymore. Sorry for the long paragraph. I know this story dounds a bit off....I wanted to dhare more incidants but I already feel like I have written alot.🙂















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Lonely

Background-Info: I've always felt very lonely for the past years. Never felt like I was part of a (friend-)group, never really had a serious relationship and I've never been very outgoing so far. 
I was pretty much all by myself with my problems, thoughts etc. It was sort of a self-destructive phase aswell. 

Met this girl, who I genuinely love talking to. Also knew from the beginning that she has a boyfriend, so I told my brain to stay calm and be friends with her. Some time went by, we talked a lot, met up a couple times, texting/talking to each other pretty much everyday and she introduced me into her friendgroup, which I am now kinda a part of (all that is new to me.)

To keep this short: I have a crush on her. I have all those butterflies in my stomach when I think or talk to her. I sometimes catch myself smiling non-stop by the thought her. It sounds like no big thing if I write this, but it's different. I've never felt this way for anybody else. I gotta admit: Normally it's almost just the looks. But not her. It's everything about her. Her looks (duh), her personality, the way she talks, her voice, those lovely little things she does, the way she texts, her social skills, how excited she gets etc. She's probably the dream-girl I've ever wanted. 

Well and then there are moments, where those butterflies decide to play war: The moment I remember she's taken. And they're happy. No, I won't move a single muscle trying to manipulate their relationship, I just won't, because it's wrong. And I wouldn't want anybody else to do that in my non-existent-relationship. It feels like a deep punch in my heart, followed by the feeling of emptiness, followed by frustration and bitterness (which led me here).

To make this clear: I want her in my life, even if we're just friends. She's an amazing person and that sort of person I always wanted, romantically or just as a friend. 
I don't know if it's just me being afraid of ending up alone again when I do anything, thinking of what she's brought into my life. Or if I just want some comfort.

PS: I have no idea how y'all keep your posts so short. Also I don't know what to expect really. I don't even know what I hope to achieve with this.


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