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Okay, things are getting worse.
I think its not meant to be. Only, thing I know is I am unable to defend myself I have no explanation of all the mistakes I am doing. And some how I am making her feel that I don’t care about her.
This is disheartening and worse thing is even I am unable to show. I think my words are more caring than my actions. I don’t know whether one day It will be all worth it, we will be living our happy life together or one day it will end up by me regretting whole life with my silly actions.