Okay so contrary to popular belief and extending on what I have previously read about OCD, it's relatively easy to acquire, and hard to let go of. To a large extent, I believe that we all have some sort of predisposition to OCD, especially those people who are extremely dedicated and have difficulty in varying their standards according to the demands of the situation. But we all must realise that everything cannot be perfect. We do not have to always be perfect, and it's not always mandatory to bring the best out of every situation. Once a person acquires OCD, it is quite hard to let go of. It requires major personality changes through therapy. 

That is true! OCD must be treated with care and patience. 

Mental Health

I am just exhausted of myself and ofc my life. It's not my Cup of tea, to manage "THE LIFE". It's not just massive event, but a disaster. I just wanna sleep for forever and never ever come back to life again. It's not at all easy. It's painful, in every minute of passing time. Show up to work everyday, whole day, for no reason at all. It's..... I don't even have words to express how more painful it is getting day by day, years by years. But what can we do, than leave all this behind and go office, where you anyways don't matter, people don't like you, and come back to room where, your roommate is so toxic. Then no place to go...


Depression

I was 10 years old when I was in an accident and I lost my ability to hear. Yes, I am deaf. I can no longer listen to music or hear my favorite singer sing that high note. I can no longer hear the laughter of my younger sister. It's tough. It's very hard going through all of this. Now I am 20, it's been 10 years and I have accepted myself. Embraced my disability. It's okay. I have no control over it and I need to learn how to live with it :)

Physical Health

Guys who don't appreciate Taylor's song are red flag 🚩 

Music

Hi 
everytime I want to do something I feel unmotivated ,lazy......yet I try to do it 
I feel like a peice of sh*t .I want to do something productive😭😭😭Its like my mind want to do but by body doesnt support

I don't know what is wrong with me. I just don't feel like living my life anymore. In my life I loved only  2 boys with my whole heart and what they did is they just played with my feelings and left me like nothing happened. I don't know why does something like this always happen with me. I have no one to talk to about my feelings so I sometimes just feel like end my life and then there will be no depression, anxiety. I care about everyone's feelings, but no one cares about mine. Can someone please motivate me to live 

So my plan or idea was no talking to anyone during ine week to focus on my mentalsef because i hace days or week on a moth where i have a big mental health.
 The thing is that I really try to be okay reaally trying but if sooo hard so hard that I can’t… sometime I don’t want to be here the only reason i still alive it’s  for my mother and other tame i want to be here cuz i want to know what kind of person i will be in the future i not really shure if i will be there.


When i aroud people ( friends) i’m in my world and i hate that because i can have fun , mind play with e all the tame and when i’m alone the same

I'm currently reading a book called can't hurt me by David Goggins, I've never in my life liked books or considered taking time to read one, but since I reached the age of 18 years old, I've gone through some really huge mental stress, and with this covid pandemic, my mentality decorated, even more, I was sucking at school more than before, I was depressed, and my life was a big ass mess, so while watching a youtube vid I was recommended to try and read this book, so I said why not cause at this point in my life I felt like I had 2 choices, either try and fix my life for good or just give it up, and this thought process is what got me here.
so while I was reading the book, the guy talked about his horrific childhood, he told everything with details, and when I reached a paragraph on page 32 that challenged me to write a list about the excuses I was throwing at myself and problems I had when I was a kid or just problems that I have right now, it also told me to either post online or just accept it privately, but I decided to do it online since it will give some empowerment  since I've never told these to someone because not even to my own family since I already know they'll probably get angry or just laugh it off but here its goes :
* I grew up so supported and comfortable I never pushed myself 
* I was overlooked for opportunities 
* I was exposed to pornography at a very early age which leads to extreme addiction to it 
* I started gaining weight cause of stress, i calm my self with food or masturbation
* I also suffer from other very bad habits 
*my productivity and efficiency deteriorated very quickly this year
* this pandemic also helped my anxiety and depression to grow even more 
*I'm very weak against struggle, I always try to take the least resistant passage 
*my will power is very weak
*I'm not motivated or driven
* I fear people opinion about me and suffer from social anxiety 
* I've never learned to love myself 
you probably you won't tell but to be honest, I felt a slight relief right now, it feels good to release all of this to whoever reading this after all these years 
ill keep you updated on my progress with the book, have a nice day 
#badhand #canthurtme


I have fucked up my life.
I m Socially Awkward,  Unemployed at 26,  Living with parents, Zero friends and zero self confidence now.
I m constantly living in humiliation,  loneliness,  and depression since last 3 years. I lost all my friends,  I never had any relationship,  I have social anxiety since childhood. 
Constant failures are killing me. I can't see any good future currently. I don't want these suicidal thoughts. I don't have anyone whom I can tell anything about how I feel. 



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