Okay, I don't know guys, I think I don't like girls, whenever I'm around them, I'm always getting angry, I think they're toxic for me 😶😐

... so many questions, so many things for me tosay at this moment, most are just me thinking i'm clever and being funny

Delusion

Anger doesn’t solve anything it’s build nothing but it can destroy everything 

Life

I am all of a sudden bothered that my father doesn't acknowledge me..but still tries to communicate with my mom...after 30+ years is this odd? Why are older men like this? I don't get it

Parenting

For all those who got their exam results back and are upset - 
This is not the end. I promise. You won't even look back at this moment,10 years down the line. These marks, in no way, determine your capabilities. I know exams are important, but please do not equate your self-worth with these numbers. They fluctuate every time you take a test, but your confidence and self-efficacy shouldn't. Exams don't take into consideration family circumstances, mental and physical health, your interest in the subjects, and outside knowledge. All they do is assess how much your brain can recall information. 
You are you and I am me. We are not the same but in a lot of ways we are. We all have the desire to reach our greatest potential, and that's what binds us all. But please, don't harm yourself over these marks. 
We are forced under a system that generalises everyone to be the same which is not true. We are unique and individualistic. We are awesome just the way we are. We will all do just great next time. 

Affirmations

I have a colleague who is just like my sister. We have great terms and bond well but she is dominating. She doesn't listen to any of the suggestions that I have to give and always feels the need to have an upper hand in all situations. She has other friends and the seniors admire her but I feel I am more experienced than her and that I deserve some recognition too. 

Work

Suggest me some good songs 🎶

3am Thoughts

I’m scared my depression is coming back... I fought of my depression 2 years ago, but now it’s seems like I’m falling into the pit again, I hate it here, I’m just empty.
I’ve lost the will to apply for a kinda study program, I’ve been working on the application for the past months, every time I think of applying I starts crying now. The program offers help by having students read through your application before you send it in. And I just got mine back there where no positive comments, they were lashing out about my spelling (I’m dyslexic, you don’t really put that in your application, but it still hurt). My ideas just got torn down and I feel utterly stupid and useless. They only accept one person per class, and I’m going up against my great friend and we talked it through, and I feel we we can get through only one of us getting chosen, but don’t feel like trying anymore, and I’m scared of telling her because im afraid she’d say i can’t take criticism. Maybe I’m too sensitive, maybe it’s me, it just didn’t feel like criticism, it felt like they tore my whole application apart and threw it on the floor. I just feel dumb and empty, and I don’t want to do it anymore.

Mental Illness

I want to stay, but there is no home. 

tho we hurt many, we are knowingly or unknowingly being a happy notification and we are being light to very very few :)
there are people who are soo concerned about us!
there are people who wait for us each and every day!
there are people who are ready to love you on the days we hate ourselves more!
there are people who are soft to us wen we are way harder to us!
there are people who make our living meaningful!
there are people who indirectly tells how beautifully we positively impact sumone’s life!
there are people who look us with a proud happy smile!
there are people who cry and pray just for us to get the peace and comfort !
there are people who keep their heart wide open where our happiness is only their happiness!
there are THERE ARE there are, there will be ! 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts