Ok so I read BL and as a girl who is straight I'm kind of guilty to do so because I know a lot of gay people hate this because it means sexualizing gay people but in another hand it's kind of refreshing to not see a girl being totally objectified and I feel like the interaction are better than straight webtoon (well not for the low grade BL with a whole bunch of stereotypes)

Books

What is definition of love?
  (Share your definition)

From me: Jab aap kisi person se baat kar rhe ho aur usse baat krke apki heartbeats actually badh jaye aur vibes match hone lage i think then you getting affection with that person thats a simple definition of love according to me.

Love

OK, so here is the thing. So today I went out with my girlfriend to a friends house and I think that my girlfriend has a crush on that friend. I am extremely nervous, and I am extremely scared that she will trade me for that other person. I have been rejected so many times that it now hurts. Just thinking about it. I really hope that my girlfriend will tell me the truth. ￼

Anxiety

Never own anyone.
Words will kill the bond 

3am Thoughts

Do miss him? Yesss
Do i want him back? Yessss
Am i gonna do anything about that? Nooo
My life rn!

Confusion

Can someone help me out?
I wanna do psychology 
So should I choose just B.A in psychology or B.A honours in psychology?

Career

Main shaam likhu, Tum raat keh dena.

Main chaand likhu, Tum har baat keh dena.

Main khamoshi likhu, Tum bas muskura dena.

Main jazbaat likhu, Tum woh baat samajh lena.

Main tera naam likhu, Tum ishq keh dena.

Addiction

Few days back my friends find out i have been self harming. So they talk to me, they were angry, they asked me why i am doing all this, i wanted to tell them the reason but i was scared because of the things they said to me,they said that "is it your new way to seek attention" they said this because few days ago only i told my friend that no one is talking with me i am feeling so lonely and shall i do something to call people's attention towards me? But i wasn't serious about this attention thing. Why do they have to use my words against me only? That's why i am scared to open up to them, they also said that why m i cutting my hand  like this, i should cut it more deeper , i will heal quickly. I was already going through so much and at that time this was the last thing i wanted to hear, i am not saying that they are wrong but they were not completely right too..i am not bitching or complaining about them i just wanted to share it..i just wanted to say that there word cuts more deeper then knife

Self Harm

(hope u read, i rly need someone rn :(( ty)

Ever since I was a child, i was always surrounded with someone who’s abusive, and the 1st one was my uncle because we used to live with them in China, we would always force me to study and hit me with a belt, hands or anything when I got it wrong. Then we decided to go back to our home country. It was all good not until my grandfather became sick. I treated my grandmother and grandpa as parents which made me even think that my mom was my sister. Okay, so then when my grandpa got sick, my grandma suggested that my mom and dad would stay at home. I really thought everything was cool not until I came home from school one day seeing my mom with a bruise on her eyes. She told me that she hit a table when she stood up, but I’m not that stupid to not know that it was my dad who hit her. Everyday was like that, he even blackmailed to hurt my little sister when we’d shout for help. Then my grandpa died, but i wasn’t in his last day or his funeral because I needed to attend a contest I joined. Then, pandemic came. I needed to study at home but my grandma insisted that I should stay with my aunties. It was al okay at first not until i never got the chance to rest because I needed to clean right after my assignments. I was physically and mentally tired that time so one day, i gave up everything, my studies, my life, everything. I didn’t eat, i wanted to be alone, i was sleeping all the time, i started blaming myself for my grandfathers death, i didn’t eat, my grades started going down and i’d usually hurt myself. I was also longing for someone’s love. Then my grandma noticed everything so she decided that I go back home. I felt enlightened again. Not until I always witnessed how my dad physically and mentally abuse my mom, he would drag, slap, punch her. even my 3 sisters. I started feeling unloved again, but this time i always eat when I feel down. I started entering relationships so i could feel how it was being loved. but here I am now, suffering from the man I love sooo much. He wasn’t the first man to hurt my feelings tho, it was my dad. I always wished i had a perfect life but seems like it won’t happen. so since then, I promised myself that I would never let this happen to my future kids. :((

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