Ok so I just found a box cutter and I was thinking about using it even though I got pencil sharpener razors….wth is wrong with me

Self Harm

Is it bad that I’m hearing voices telling me to cut and that a whole bunch of stuff and that I’m seeing red scratches on my arm like it’s a place I should cut?

Delusion

Does leaving marks on your wrist or legs with scissors counts as self-harming?

I am feeling very very suicidal rn and tbh just having a blade in my other hand and my devils are calling to cut my wrist 😫😫😫😫

I haven't really been feeling myself for a few weeks But I have been managing somehow. But I know I will be breaking down anytime soon and I know that I will be doing self-harm again soon. I just don't want anything to trigger me and break down in front of everyone. Yeah, a small vent.

It's amazing how literally nothing in my life has changed since the last time I've been on this app. I didn't expect the scars on my face to suddenly vanish or for someone to suddenly look beyond them, but I still feel a little bad about all that. 

The only thing that you can say has changed are my meds. I'm back on vicodin. 

Affirmations

I think I will cut again, It been some time since I last did so but I feel so stressed and irritated, I can´t deal with this pressure. I want to feel something other than stress right now, I keep tugging on my hair so I can feel the pain but it is not enough.



I have self harming nature since childhood. I just can't resist. And now my self harming is at it's peak. I can't stand agony of others, but I feel nice after hurting myself. I need help. I feel nice after seeing my blood oozing out. I feel a weird relief after cutting my skin and seeing my blood. 

I Cut myself on my ankle and carved this (😑) on my ankle.

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