Oh to be sitting under the bare sky hand in hand ... Peaceful and serene 

3am Thoughts

When person tells you that a month ago he cried for hour when he got drunk and was saying that loved me while crying, do you guys think it is sincere? When people get drunk are their feelings genuine? 

Confusion

Does having love on someone need to be proved to them all the time?? 
I love her so much, but we had a break-up bcoz her family doesn't like me. It was hard for me to process it. I couldn't do anything hardly after that. I was collapsed and it took too long for me to cope up with situations happening around. I know she too struggled a lot more than me and expected me to show up. I couldn't be able to be by her side when she needed me the most as I was processing the pain and wasn't having a subtle mindset to think about anything. I still love her, but she is not with me. I still care for her, but can't express to her. 

After all these years of our relationship she now thinks that I'm the reason for her suffering, I didn't love her truly as I didn't show up when needed, I was happily moved on as I don't talk to her, she is now feeling disgusted for loving me. Listening to those words from my loved one's ripped my heart. I do feel guilty for not being on her side, I still feel. But what about my true feelings and love I still have towards her?? Do I need to prove them everytime in every situation?? I can't digest the fact that most loved person in my life has this level of understanding over me. I now really feel useless, unimportant and like a big loser. It's hurting a lot.....

Breakup

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Bas aur Saha nai jata..

Ye shor ye dard dekha nai jata,

Sambhal jao, kahi bahut der na hojaye,

Kahi ye haste hue chahre, in gusse wale andhero mai na khojaye..

Chord do na ye jagde wali baate,

Kyu karab karne ye khoobsurat riste aur naate,

Kamzor sa hai mera dil duniya ke aagae,

Kuch jayda nahi bas thoda sukoon aur shanti ye subse maagae.... 



Life

Yo so tomorrow i have to go n get put on birth control yo like tf yo i dont want to be put on that shit like fr yo like ugh just let me get pregnant like fr yo  

Other

Okayy so here's something 
I have a younger sibling and i obviously love him very much. But sometimes i feel like my parents never encouranged and supported me in extra curriculum and other things as much as they do with my brother. Now my parents never gave me anything less they love me and all of that yes but you know i just feel that if i would have got such attention i would have done much better. I am very much happy for my brother but i just feel sad for my younger self. Am i a bad elder brother?

Overthinking

My brother is secretly having an affair with an older woman. What should I do?

I found out that my brother having an affair with an older woman. my brother is 30 i think? I saw her facebook profile and checked everything and also her birthday (1971,dec1). she has a husband and 2 children (son-25+,daughter-32+married). Whatever…

I despise my brother for everything, she maybe fall for him? had a crush on him. you see if any girls talk to me or come to me he criticizes and degrades me in front of them. he has ruined my life all years and controlled me. I don’t like his personality that he has
.
I even have an older brother(he’s 33 and different and insults my parents secretly, i’m won’t bring up this story) and the one I’m talking about is “middle brother” and me I’m the “younger”(25 too) one whos writing this description.

You know she’s a business owner, CEO and my brother does managing her stuff and he gets pay(i guess). I know him well enough. in he’s room smells like manure he doesn’t chore or clean his room, my mom does and pressures her sometimes. like I said “personality or behavior”.

I’ve found out their activity in messenger and found he had a selfie photo with her, together and one is tape, about he was sucking her vagina like it’s 52secs clip. she sends this tape to him. I don’t know if he was taking those pictures or recording a moment with her phone or his phone
i can’t tell.

maybe he already sends those (her pic+rec clips) with his friends only. his friends aren’t good but stalkers.

i can’t accept his action. I need help with this. i can’t imagine this kind of happened. I can’t accept what he did in my past life. it makes me mad and so sad.

Note: What should I do about it? should I tell her husband or son or daughter about it? or talk to this woman? can i do that?

my parents know him well. he had started this kind of activity in the past 2015.


Sexual Health

Any quote that would help ya out when you really need the motivation???

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