Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Nowadays, small things are affecting me emotionally. I won’t react at that time, but once I reach home, I will cry out like I lost someone. I work in a lab along with 7 scholars. Even if they are there, I feel left out. They talk among themselves and talk in secret code when I join them. If I talk, they won’t pay any attention. But what I noticed is that by the end of the month, they will talk to me and take me along with them for food and end payment by me. If I buy something like a book or materials for my craft, they will make comments like, Since I am rich, I can buy anything. Actually, I survive and spend what I get as my stipend and savings, which I had from this stipend only. They also get the same as me—actually more, but I didn’t understand these comments. Usually, I don’t give any value to such comments.
In our lab, there is an aquarium that they purchased but that I maintain and feed. Today I bought a few fish to put in that, but they told me it’s not possible to put them in their aquarium and take them home. I didn’t say anything and took the fish to my home. And I cried like anything because of this incident. I don’t know why I am getting emotional over such small incidents now.