Nothing is gonna change. Nothing. I hate it. If I was good with everyone why are these bad things happening to me.

3am Thoughts

Love is a word what matters is the connection  it implies 

Love

There is one very annoying thing about my body is it gets hungry and that hunger affects my body like acidity and headache. Like i legit ate something or maybe i am fool and boom 2 hours later i need something again. Dude how can I feed you every 2 hours that too healthy. I am frustrated tbh

Physical Health

I m in a relationship with this guy for 2 and a half years now. Lately,  he moved to canada for his higher studies. With long distance, there has been many ups and down in our relationship. My past relationships were not very good as I was never acknowledged as girlfriend I was always kept a secret and had got dumped by guys. And with my boyfriend, he always shows me off to his friends, posts random pics of me on his stories but lately everything has changed. I don't know what.  We are having lot of fights and also I m not in good terms with my family. Now, I m always afraid if he will break up with me to an extent that I always think if I had done something wrong or should i say this will it hurt me 
Lately, we had a fight over stupid issue that he was about to sleep and I had videocalled him to say Goodnight. He out of blue got all cranky and started abusing me and also said that this relationship is shitty and I m killing him day by day. I don't know how to react to him.

Long Distance Relationship

like i have age of marriage, my parents made my account on jeevansathi and shadi. com for finding groom, my mom once get someone phone no. 

mene usse lagbhg one week bat ki, I just found out he is the man I ever desire in my life 
is bat ko 5-6 months hogye hmari bat ko
but suddenly after a week of talk he starts ignore and do not respond back so I stop calling or texting him as I don't want to force someone in relation
but even after 5-6 months I am not able to move on from his thoughts 
I miss him everyday, even when I dont know him much 
I never met him in real life just a talk on call 
or uske bad se muje na koi or pasand aa raha, or na he kisi or ldke ko jan ne ka man krta

shyd vo mere liye acha bhi na ho, but I still keep him in my wishes
muje toh ye bhi nae pta how he actually looks I just see the pictures he sends earlier, 
shyd uska kahi or rishta bhi ho gya ho, I even delete his number pictures but still not able to move on, I never felt such strong feelings for anyone.


Marriage

Good night or morning 

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Cheating

heyy the pfp is my drawing what do u think about it??

Motivation

I need some friends everyone i had left me and my gf too did left me so i am really lonely..

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