not to live vicariously through others, but i wish i had a cool group of friends that i can go on road trips with and be comfortable around and talk to and not worry about whether they like me or not. I’ve had really toxic friendships in the past but i dont want that to hold me back as a person. I’m 21 so im still young and not tryna live life in a linear way, but i was also sheltered during my teen years so i feel like i have missed out on a lot of experiences growing up.

Other

Had a lot of friends in college, so it never felt that I need a GF too as I was more than happy with all my friends.

But as the college comes to an end, now I'm only left with 1 friend. All other are busy with their GFs/BFs, and now they find it difficult to take out time for their friendship

Also during this wfh thing, I don't even have a single school friend in my hometown with whom I can hangout as most of my classmates went abroad after school.

I don't know what to do know, feels like I really need someone special now with whom I can share anything and who's more than a friend to me and understands my emotions.



Girlfriend

Today, I felt really bad. As from last few days I wasn't feeling really good. And, was not able to talk to anyone properly. But, today I tried to talk to my only 2 frnds I have there. But, they were ignoring me already. 
I tried to come back from my mood swings today, but it felt really bad to see both of my frnds behaving this way with me. Chhhiii yaar

Anxiety

I am The most fraudulent personality you can come across on this platform.

Affirmations

At the start of my senior college we were a pack of friends but 1 thing led to another and everyone moved apart so did I but in that grp these 2 girls i got super close with but as I said everyone moved away they 2 also lacked communication so they don't really talk with each other.
Now the problem is they don't really like that i share the things with both of them they don't say me but sometimes there words and actions show that, they both really care for me and they take a stand whenever I needed them but i don't know what to do now 🙂.
I really don't know how to explain my situation.

Friends

I'mm sooo scared to try to fit in with my new friend group

I've been feeling kinda suck lately, I've been overthink about myself in a friend group. So I had a friend group that has 20 member on it and we've been playing games, chatting and more but days by day I feel like I'm making the uncomfortable, and annoyed them. Since they act weird recently. Ugh idk why but that's making me losing motivation to do things that I usually do. They were my only group friend that I had and I don't want to make myself get kicked out 😭also i have crush on 1 of the member, our relationship are good kinda close not rlly. And there a bich that acting sad and depressed and only be nice to my crush like excuse me 😃😃and 6 of the member think that she deserves better bla bla bla but I feel like, my place were moved yknow like THAT SUPPOSED TO BE ME. ugh life so unfair i hate my life

Jealous

Do you have that one friend in the squad who's an airhead, what do you think of that friend like do you like them and accept them as they are or  you find them annoying
well it's fine if you find them annoying it's the whole point of having many friends with different characters 

F people. I'm fucking tired of putting in so much effort into my f*ing friendships then they just treat me like shit like it makes no sense. I'm gonna start cutting people off I don't deserve this treatment I treat everybody so well I check on my friends all the time. I'm done having this treatment I deserve better and I now know I do. 

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