Not a fan of Indian TV shows but there's something different about the below poetry, kept it aside for years, just came across it today so sharing😉

**Yaadon mein kitni dafa, tumhari gali tumhara dard pukarta raha** 

**magar kya karoon, mujhse hi aaya na gaya,**

**ek gham jo diya tha maine, mujhse bhulaya na gaya**

**us roz main yahan se gaya tha ye sochkar ki laut aaunga**

**ek waada jo kiya tha tumse wo nibha jaunga,**

**par shayad us waqt zindagi ko ye manzoor naa tha**

**warna main is qadar bhi majboor naa tha**

**abhi bhi waqt hai, haan waqt hai abhi,**

**lekin ye waada hai khud se ki ek din tumhare saamne aunga main**

**tumne jo kiya tha wo har shikwa mita jaunga**

**yakeen dila dunga ki main bura tha, magar itna bhi nahi**

**warna tumhara har ilzaam apne sir utha lunga, jo kar paya gar itna bhi nahi**

*NBTNMKK*

U remember the characters as well🙌🙌

💛NBTNMKK
💛Mohan and megha bhatnagar
Such a beautiful story


Poetry

Earphones se hee shaadi karlunga kisi din. Bina bakchodi pyaar karti hai. Kabhi kabhi nakhre karti toh charging pe laga deta.

Life

Hypocrisy k b Seema hoti h 

3am Thoughts

Ni ho rha ab, wanna hug someone and cry my heart out, I wish I could just tell someone, I wish koi hota sath mein

Anxiety

Aaj na mere so called father ne jinhone father jaisa kuchh kaam kiya hi nhi mere liye unhone bola mujhe ki kis kutiya ko paida kr liya, haramzaadi marti bhi nhi hai bs paisa barbaad krti rehti hai or khana khaati rehti hai .. ye toh waise roz hi bolte hai pr kal meri maa ne mere bhai ko bola ki tu isse door reh nhi toh tujhe bji mere se door kr degi.... ye bhi roz hi boltu hai par point ye hai mujhe farak kyu pdh rha hai.. mujhe bhi nhi pata bs kabhi kabaar mn krta hai baar jau ya mr jaau pr dono hi nhi kr sakti

Suicidal Ideation

Yrr ab mere andar emotions hi nhi rhe 
Khushi or dhukh ka pta nhi chlta

Breakup

Maine kahan tha aap pe chote baal bohot suit karte hain lekin fir bhi aapne bhadha liye. Kam se kam chote toh rakh hi sakte the, humko sukoon hi mil jata ki baato ko dhyaan mai rakha gaya hai lekin aapko kahan farak padhta hai mai hoon ki nahi. Bas ek aur anjaan banda tha, just another guy. Aaj tak jo cheezein kisiko nahi boli woh bola aapko, aaj tak tareef nahi ki kisi ladki ki lekin aapki ki shayad nahi same feel hua hoga aapko. I had the purest of intentions, I wasn't lying when I said never wanted anything but you😊

jb jb halat or uljhanlo lad ke har ke tumne rishte ki dor todne ke kohsish to ki magar nhi tod paya bss uski bakhiyan udhadti gye , hr udhda sira mai jodta to gya pr aaj jb palat ke dekhta hoon to hr jod pr ek gath najar aate hai pta nhi tumko woh gathe kbhi dikhi ya nhi. Khona nhi chahta tha tumhe , pr sath hi sath kuch tut rha tha andar or ek darr tha sath hi kuch kass ke pakadne ka sangarsh un tute hisso ko uthane ke lie jab jab jhukta ek or hissa tut ke gir jata or ek chote bache ki trah sb kuch bator lena chahti tha mai pr hoe nhi paya aisa hota nhi hai aisa , bachpan ki pariyan whi rehti hai sath nhi aati, kisse khaniyan sb whi khin kisi purane bakse mai ked reh jati hai . Tumse alg hone ke bad yeh ehsaas hua ki asal jeevan to kuch or hi hai . Kitni raaton mai un jaagti khawishon ko or dher saari saapno ki bheed ko behla ke yeh keh ke sulaya tha ki raat hai soo jao ek subah aayegi tumko phir jagane pr woh subah kbhi aaye nhi dheere dheere raat ke andhero mai tumhari yaadein mere khyalo ke jaal mai fasne lgi or saari raat mere sawalo se unki saansein ghut ti rehti , unginat sawal . sapno ke bde bde mahal bhi to bna lie the hmne pr sb khali the unko bhrna chahta tha pr bharta kaise uske lie tumhari , tumhare waqt ke saman  ke jrurat the jo un dayero tk reh gye or jo milta tha woh aasman mai phenki kisi khairat ke trah lgta tha or khairat mai mila kbhi kaafi nhi hota.  binaa vishwas rishta  kab tak palta kb tk hra rehta .
tumne ek bar jo toda tumhara mujhe jhootha btana . Meri bhi majboori rahi hogi par vishwas majbooriyan kaha maanta hai sacchai majbooriyan ko hara  deti hai. is bat  ka mujh ko yakeen to tha tumne humesha kha bhi tha ,bohot mushkil tha usko banana main koshish karta raha , pr akele us vishwas ko kahaan tak bana pata . Tumhare sath ki jrurat the mujhko un tukdon tukdon ko sametne ke liye ankon ke liye sametna mere bass mein nahin tha ek sahara chahiye tha , tumhara!! Main isi intezar mai betha rha  .tumhare pass waqt hi kaha tha tumhari majbooriyan jo the . Mujhe, Mujhe rona tha tumse milakar tumhare saath bhot sikhwe the   , bohot ladna tha ,dil chir kar dikhana tha kitna pyaar hai batana tha kitni jrurat the mujhko tumhari , dikhana tha ki kya the tum mere lie . haan bohot toofan bhara tha mere andar , us bandh bandhe rkha tha mann mai jisko sirf tum khol skte the ek nye rang mai ek darr khatam krna tha bss itna sa hi to waqt chaiye tha tumhara or tumne dia bhi to tha poore 2 ghante , woh do ghante shayad kam padh gaye the itne sare hisaab  ghanton mein mumkin  nahin the itne hafton ke dard ka   lekha jokha do ghante mein kaise niptate.itne samay ka likha  puch gaya tha do ghante mein dubara kaise bhar paate hum  m. us shaam un do ghanton ne bohot kuch bayan kiya . us roz pata laga tumhare sahuliyaten, tumhare  prathmiktayein bohot alag thi phir bhi ek baat ka yah to yakeen hai ki  tumhara haal bhi mere haal se alag nahin raha hoga jeevan juda  hokar hi shi ek doori mai phir samanantar hi hoga , kb  jaana tha humne saath chal rahe the magar dharti or aasman ke tarah par  vo alag hi rahenge humesha.tumhare jaane ke baad ek pal bhi ek yug bann jaega ye  nhi pta tha  . ab jo uth ta hoon  subah un yaadon ke sath to aksar der tk bistar pr lete apne kamre ki chatt ko niharta rehta . Waqt ka postman phir mera saman mujhe pkda jata hai ek puraane lamho ki potli jab kholta hoon usko dekhta hoon itne samay ke tohfe bhr laya tha kambakht puraane se kagaj mai lipti yaadein , Surkh dabbe mai tanhai , hari si bottle mai kuch arsh lamhon mai or ek ek choti si pudiyan mai kuch muskurahaten jinmein tumhare saath bitaye waqt ke kitne hi lamhen kaid  hai .


Yeh depression Joh neet ke mock tests ke baad Ata haina, inse nikalna bohot mushkil hai. Bohot.

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