No matter what y'all say, you won't ever understand it's always going to be hard being a girl living in the world. 

That's why she said no matter what y'all say. It's harder for girls dude. She's right. 

I know its hard being a girl in this world but at the same time its also hard for being a boy in this world.....

I totally agree with you.It’s always the girls who get demeaned and insulted. 

Exhausted

Acha se rap songs suggest kro 

Music

Okay black is beautiful. I would say that black is a unique color and that it's very special

Body Positivity

I've an exam coming up and my mind is not able to shut down. I had tried sleeping but my thoughts won't stop and my heart beat is constantly rapid and I was shaking even while lying down. Dejected I got up, but my mind is not shutting down and now I'm frustrated with it and having a breakdown 

Anxiety

i really hate that i need male validation to feel good about myself :( 

3am Thoughts

Talking to someone for hours is so dangerous. Because you invest all your time, love and attention. Only to see a day where you both stop talking. There is silent evenings. Pain. Hurt. A void which no one and nothing can fill. You try to find replacements but even that can't fill the hole in your gut. It's like you have lost a part of you. Pain changes people. Some grow silent. Some grow cold.Some put up big walls. But i choose to grow kinder in this cruel lonely world.

Affirmations

After a certain point in life people either learn to live by themselves and feel the fulfilment of their needs or will be constantly running around looking for answers to unanswered questions that are running through their head for ages now. 
You’ll stop feeling things once you reach a certain age or place in life. Things that matter now will not matter 2 or 3 years later from now. Men who hurt you will either go through their karmic cycle or you’ll be left wondering “what did I do to deserve what you did to me” and just keep living the same miserable life. 

Thanks, everyone for reading my previous post. I'm sorry I can't write the whole thing, I was not able to do it at that time, but for now, I am quite stable for writing.  I thought that I have to write everything because I need to tell someone and this is where at least I can throw out everything which is running in my mind.  I have no friends, my family members are backdated thinkers they won't listen to about all this. Although I can't tell them everything because I know the consequences after that.  So this is the way where I can share my thoughts anonymously. 
So I started from the very beginning. 
It was 18th February 2020 when we met first at a festival. I don't know him personally before that he was a colleague of one of my friends, we both were invited there. After we met he started to talk with me, I also casually talked with him. At that time I was not aware he gained some feelings for me in our first meeting. After the party is over I came back home.
3 days later in the evening, I received a phone call from an unknown number. I received the phone call and hear he was on the call, I was surprised because I didn't give him my number. I asked him how do you know about my phone number... He took the number from that friend and he called me to talk with me because we are in the same class and he needs some notes for the upcoming examinations. I didn't think anything and added him to my WhatsApp. 
He started flirting with me and within a week he proposed to me. At first, I rejected him but after a few days I accepted his proposal and we started our relationship.
After 1 week of our relationship, we had our first fight he didn't call me for a whole day he didn't call me, and I freaked out for the first time. 
I have some anger issues so,
I busted upon him when he called after a day... then we fought again. After 2 or 3 days it cools. We started talking again normally.
Because of the global pandemic, we don't meet each other from the start of our relationship. But it was not a big problem... The major problems are upcoming after that...
Some day later I heard from someone, that I torture him mentally... I didn't support him... And every time I fought with him. 
I asked that person how did she know about that.. she told me my boyfriend's female best friend told her those things about me...
Here is to mention that his female best friend is that person.. in whose home we met first...
I felt very bad ... How did he tell me about me like that... Why he is lying.. it was just 3 weeks of our relationship. And they did this with me.


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