"No experience is in itself a cause of our success or failure. We do not suffer from the shock of our experiences - the so-called trauma -- but instead we make out of them whatever suits our purposes. We are not determined by our experiences, but the meaning we give them is self-determining"

Source: The courage to be Disliked by ichiro kishmi, fumitake koga

Commets welcomed.


That doesnt explain some things but okay. 

Other

People are getting toxic here! This app should have made this on "invites only" bases.



3am Thoughts

I want to be free like those butterfly 

I REALLY REALLY HATE my second sister. Everything that she did seem not right to me because yeah, I hate her so much,but never say it. I think every kindness that she showed was all fake,just to get the attention. She liked to say that I'm not good in everything, mocking, laughing at me. My parents adore her so much. Lol, they never know what I've been through all this time. There is one time when i don't bring notebook to the morning assembly, then had to stand in front of all students.  After that, she came to me and said 'you're so stupid, try to be like me. I hope you i don't know you. Now all my friend talk about you. I felt so ashamed! This is just only a little piece of my stories .I have no one to tell this. It only my first sister, hear all of this but.. now, she's married,have her own family and it's not the same anymore. I cry so often. My parents don't even believe me a word , they told me to love my sister because we're siblings. My sister and I used to be sooo close, until one day, we had a big fight, I couldn't remember why .It's been 8 years i guess, we don't talk to each other like before.  Sometimes i think, can't we be a close like old days? but when I remember all the unsaid pain I bear .. I don't it is a good idea. I also had a wish that she will die soon ,very soon so I can be a cheerful person i should be!

Bullying

DAY 5
[of telling my story with this guy until I feel like I’m over him.]
~ONCE UPON A DREAM~
[...] I woke up after barely sleeping because I was imagining how it would be; I was clearly very excited so I didn't get my 8 hours of sleep, did my hair, makeup put on my attires, and went out, I had plans with my friends before him and when I was done with them on my way I was on the phone with my bestie because I couldn't handle the stress all by myself. At the station, I arrived early still on the phone waiting patiently for him to show up; and once he did I approached him *still on my phone* he shakes my hand and I already knew he was going to be the shy guy so I didn't want to complicate it more for him, I acted and talked normal just like social media and he made this remark too, saying:" wow you act exactly the same way you text but I'm shy" brushed off everything with a laugh so, ' a reminder that I was on my period and I didn't have anything for breakfast ' we started walking looking for a place to eat and then he was like:" I have plans with my homies I have to go in 20mins" "are you that dumb to make plans with your buddies whom you always meet just after us meeting for the first time I genuinely think you just have to cancel with them, you never know when things go down!!! you shouldn't have made plans with them in the 1rst place" I replied, but he casually said:" I'm sorry I can't do it they really made a huge effort to come to see me I miss them and we haven't met in a while" well I just had to say "okay" but I was very pissed; we got there straight after; we went up to settle into a table then I noticed that he went out to a group of female friends and said hi because apparently they knew each other and came back to me; KEEP IN MIND I was the one who chooses the place( so he had no idea they were there), I just went like ' oh so he is so friendly with girls everywhere not only on social media ', he set down we barely talked and he had to LEAVE!! Now I'm left alone in the restaurant seeing him leaving through the stairs until he disappeared...

Overthinking

CRYING IS NOT A WEAKNESS 

Exhausted

New day new chapter!!!
May positivity fill your body!!

Hope

Any unfortunate Barcelona fan like me?

Nostalgia

I wish someone understands my feeling, someone talks, I have become lonely, no one who gives me love, who gives my every happiness 

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