My taste buds remember how sweet you taste Just like nectar to the bee

My fingers remember every inch of your body
Just like braille to the blind

My lips remember all your kisses Just like dusking sun kiss the sea

My heart will always remember your love Cos with you, every moment
you make me realize
I'm in paradise 

                                      -- An Imagination

Roymen

Shivang 

Debora Sharon.L

3am Thoughts

**if you are looking for the sign this is for you**
"you deserve to be happy. life isn't always about work, errands, getting things done, setting long term goals, making other people happy, etc. your life is about you. about what matters to you. so listen to yourself,  take time on yourself, to improve and understand the difference between what you need, and what you want. that should be your main priority. taking care of the little things, and chasing the moments that take your breath away.  someone love you, maybe you should let someone in. maybe you should let someone look after you for once, to text you in the middle of the night to make sure you're okay. someone to call you throughout the day just to remind you  of how much they love you. life is haurd but you, my dear, are made of the softest things, and you deserve a pair of gentle hands to lift your head above the waters, so you could inhale and learn to breathe on your own  again. "  -r.  m.  drake

Overthinking

Hope in the divine can empower a human being to overcome unimaginable obstacles. In a terrible predicament, when our hearts embraced hope, we attracted a power beyond ourselves to guide us, purify us and, ultimately, liberate us.

I want to get over you...but whenever i try getting over you then i think that you may like me...even though i know u don't like me..🙂

Crush

a letter to my ex:
yesterday would have been our 2 year anniversary. except I broke up with you in January. 
I spent the day with my best friends. I looked fucking great. I just fucking looked like I wanted to, and no, nothing like the "sweet", muted girl you dated. I wore my goddamn eyeliner and mascara, feeling like Effy from Skins, just like I like. you would have hated it and I love that.
I don't miss you. I don't feel bad for you.
I want you to stop texting me. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to see you ever again. Don't come goddamn looking for me in 5 years.
you still make me angry. I'm working on it though. releasing the weird power you had over me. its wild how you still think you have that power. I release it by doing alll the things you wouldn't like me to do, like letting my edgy side take over, caring less about school, smoking and generally giving less of a fuck. (and to anyone who's concerned, I've got my shit under control and im not going rogue, don't you worry).
I adore being my own person. And being alone. I love me without you.
I was so lonely and pathetic and that's why I stayed with you. I didn't think I was but I look back now and cringe. I spent 6 months fucking debating whether or not to break up with you every day. It made me sick. it made my anxiety worse. and I still asked you to FaceTime. like a fucking loser.
Then on 24th January 2021 I jumped off the fucking deep end and now you're gone and I couldn't be happier. jeez do I love me without you. its crazy.
im getting my hair cut short tomorrow, and another piercing.
In short, good riddance and fuck right off.
Love me x

P.S: if you're debating whether or not to break up with your partner, my unsolicited advice whilst having no knowledge of who you are is  goddamn do it. spend that energy on yourself and you'll be 1000x happier. to anyone who's bothered to read this, join me in saying a big fuck you to relationships. and also why in gods name have you read my ramblings lmao. see ya. 

Gratitude

I am sorry that I hurt you...you were my best friend...
I still can't believe that our friendship faced a tragic end...
I owe you an apology...and I guess this is the right time...
I am a Criminal...hurting you was my crime...
never wanted to let you down...never wanted to see you frown....
it's been a month I am having this feeling and I am so down...
it wasn't my intentions to make you sad.....
it's that all the things I did for you went bad....
now you hate me....that was very hard to accept...
I am feeling like burdened...like I have a debt...
checking bills...nope...all have been paid...
wait its burden of the mistakes that I made...
lets be honest.. one month went like a whole year...
I wish I could move life..in Reverse gear...
Punish me...forgive me...that is what I need...
I just want to undo my wrong deed...
I can't sing...I can't dance...
all I need is another chance...
I just want you to know...that I still care..
and I want to make...everything clear and Fair...
Please Forgive me...that is all what I can say...
I don't want to live like this...it's becoming harder day by day...
Punish me, forgive me, that is what I need.
I just want to undo my wrong deed.

I can't sing; I can't dance.
All I need is another chance.

I just want you to know that I still care,
And I want to make everything clear and fair.

Please forgive me; that is all what I can say.
I don't want to live like this; it's becoming harder day by day.

I trusted you with all my feelings, my emotions and my secrets. I showed you my vulnerable side. All i wanted from you was to be my friend, but instead you just stopped caring just because i told you that you're drifting away from me? You know how much i valued, loved and adored you. How and why did you stop loving me? You said you'll never leave me alone and will never stop loving me, but now you are the one who makes me feel alone & unloved. Where did it go wrong? I am hurting here and you just seem fine. You always gave me priority, and now you probably wouldn't care if i am there or not and it hurts. I loved that you trusted me with yourself, told me every little thing, acted clingy to me, made me feel wanted. But now all that is completely gone.it hurts to see you slowly turning into a stranger right in front of my eyes. You say i still hold the same place in your life, i know that's very much a lie but ofc i cant confront you anymore. I just miss you because you just don't seem like "you" anymore.

How to forget the past. Or any human you were close to?

Hope is pouting in advance, hope is faith's richer, bit chi er sister, hope is the deformed,attic bound  incest monster offspring of entitlement and fear. 

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