my result came today of something to which I gave my 100% I dont know how will I make my parents proud and this is surely the phase I will never want to turn back on

Was the result as expected or completely different 

Anxiety

Hey everyone. This is my first time i am writing something like this where i am telling how i feel about my life. I just passed class twelfth, obviously low score. Parents as usual unhappy, rather dissatisfied. I had PCM. I was never made for these subjects. Parents thought it's the only way to be successful in life and on their saying i took these subjects. I never understood a word about chemistry. I could understand any reaction. I never understood the concepts of physics, though I tried a lot to understand these but never succeeded. My only hope was math. After my result, i scored the lowest in math. And nobody cared the fact that even though i couldn't understand a thing about science still i managed to score 75%. My dad says i never tried to work hard. And sees a great disappointment in me. But who will tell him that his son scored in  the subjects which were beyond his reach, subjects others feared to study. I just want my dad to know this. I never told him that I can't understand a thing. He never asked me that if i was comfortable with the subjects or not. And i don't know what to do in life because he still wants me to go in science field. 


Other

I want to pursue a career on my choiced subject but my family is against me as the scope of it is very low. I have mass communication in my mind to go after. But my parents feel it's an endangering career for a small town girl. And the income through it is also incomparable to the ones in government jobs. I was a science student but I don't feel I am too good for getting a chance in government engineering colleges and my parents can't afford me to fetch engineering from private ones. I feel low and shattered right now. I kept my proposal of getting a course on voice training mainly poetry delivering. But they gave another rejection and lots of lectures on how incapable I am.
My father literally declared that he won't support me if I go and pursue mass communication in any college nor would he help me monetarily. I feel devastated 😞😣😣

Career

My dad isn’t talking to me cuz my exam didn’t go well and he doesn’t understand that i did work hard and you can’t be good at every subject.

Stress

i just wanted to ask you guys about your financial struggles because im having some major one's right now , i have a single mom who can't afford to pay my school fees as of now and the school board called us and told me to not attend school until my mom doesn't pay the fees , its been months and honestly i feel like im the only one with this situation and i just sit at home with nothing to do and its so depressing 

Mental Health

Is there any scope in pyschology .I thinking to do master in pyschology...btech .cousell me.

Job Security

in my life all the decisions were taken by mom dad ,after 12th they choose a field which i never wanted to do but i never had guts to tell them that what i want to do ,so i just accepted what they gave me after a year i failed in a subject by 2 marks and i got drop ,that time i told them that i dont wanna be in this field but they said that we have told the relatives that your in this field and after a year i began to study in tha same field but again after a year i failed that time i tried to kill myself and went in depression but still my mom dad said they have told the society that i am in this field ,its not that i havent tried ,i tried alot but still i failed by 2 marks or by 4 marks.i just feel hopeless. i never wanted to be looser ,i always wanted to achieve good in my life but now i think my life is messed up. now i am just having a sucidel thoughts.💔💔💔

Depression

It all started in 2019, I left my job as a chemical engineer and started a new journey towards learning data science. I joined an institute for training and it lasted for 8 months and from that point, I am jobless.  It's not like I did not work hard for it, I did all I could and I also made few mistakes out of good intentions for myself. 
After every job interview, they said that I cannot get this job because I am from a chemical background.
I have been failing for more than 2 years now and I feel like I should quit and try something else, I am thinking of doing Mtech in Chemical engineering. 
When I told my parents about this they think I am just being a loser and I am failing because I quit too soon, I don't think that trying for 2 years straight and then quitting is too soon. 
I am so depressed that I play PC games the whole day and I do not feel like going out and meeting my relatives and friends. 
I am not able to make eye contact with my parents, I am losing my respect in their eyes. 
I am 25 and I feel like everyone is going ahead of me and I am lacking behind. I feel like if I talked about this with my relatives and friends, instead of helping me they will judge me and spread a false rumour about me(I have few relatives who spread false rumours and they love to talk about other's failure all the time).
I really need someone to express this feeling all out. 


Failure

Hey Guys !!!
I need your help .....

My parents are against my dreams and ambitions. I wanted to be a singer at first but then they told me that I will have no future because I will be wasting my time on useless career and that I am not very talented. 
I guess they were right about me being not talented so I made up my mind to become start my own business. I wanted to open up a coffee shop but I haven't planed a lot about it since I am still studying. When I told my parents about it, they told me that it would be an embarrassment  to the family and that people would think I am crazy... 

I really don't know what to do........... I want to make my parents proud but at that same time follow my dreams 

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