My relationship has gone through one heck of a ride. Most of which is on my plate.
Gave in to parents pressure and got married 3years back to a complete stranger, leaving my then boyfriend behind without any closure.
Till date, this decision has been the biggest mistake of my life. Wish I could turn it back but that’s not possible.
He graciously accepted me back when I realised I fucked it up. It’s been 3 years since then. My marriage didn’t last for more than 4 months.
Right now, I’ve started working while he is still struggling to get a job. I am not there most of the time and it’s getting hard to keep up cos I’m still new to this job.
I am unable to help him , motivate him to push forward cos I feel like whatever I do or say is a fuck up. I feel like I’ll only make him worse.
And he has had his cup full. Fed up of my fuck ups and mistakes. No matter what I do , the past trauma is still there. I understand but I am just starting to feel suffocated juggling work and my love life. We have broken up n number of times but always manged to spring up. Now that too feels exhausting…
Are you still married?
