

My post graduation results has been published. It’s been two weeks since it was published. I didn’t get the last two semesters.I haven’t told my parents. I was waiting for the right moment. I was not sure how to tell them because I know they will be extremely disappointed and somehow I couldn’t stand it even though it’s my fault. Just now my cousin called and told my mother that results have been published. My cousin got first class. My mom asked me and I said no without thinking. We have some guests who are staying for few days, because of that my mom couldn’t ask more. I seriously don’t know what to do?

I was preparing for many scholarships available as the Universities in my country hasn't opened yet. But suddenly, when my University opens again, they have this policy to give a fine of 32378$ if I were to quit halfway or accept other scholarships than the government scholarship. My mom was all supporting me finding scholarships until this stupid policy is established but now she is not seeing what I'm trying at all since the fine is too high for us ordinary ppl. I feel so sad and madddd.

Education

I want to share my story and I think it will be little boring for off fielders so apologizing for that
I am 21 and just completed btech in chemical field and in the month of February I got placed in government company with the package of 18.45 lacs , they gave medicine offer letter in March itself and this was my campus placement but in June when my medical checkup was done , they rejected me on that bias saying I am having squint in my eye ( means it is slightly slant , around 4-5 degrees) but neither do I nor my parents have ever seen something like this in my eyes , Even when I was infant they haven't seen anything like this in my eyes , means it is also not visible from naked eyes and this thing is also next to normal thing but they didn't gave me any time to fix these and they just rejected me.
This also don't require any surgery just 3-4 days of exercise can be sufficient but they didn't listen to me at all. My job was gone and due to placement i was also not able to sit in any other interviews. I feel very low for that 🥺.
Now I have one offer from a private company named Aditya Birla but it's package is only 6 lacs but I have to go for it compulsuorliy and will join after 2 weeks .
But I still remember that company and the way I cracked every round of interviews and tests for the company. I sometimes overthink that what are the bad deeds that I have done that I am getting this much big punishment. Thank you for reading. 

Career

I need a suggestion.

I have confirmed my admission at a university abroad and have given the seat booking amount as well.
Things were going well and I was about to apply for an education loan but due to some reason I am not able to.
In order to fund my education my father is taking my grandfather's money. My grandfather has already invested a lot in my father but nothing worked out for him.
Now my grandparents just for me their granddaughter agreed to my father to fund my expenditures which is around 22 lacs.

I recently got to know this and I am in a dilemma. I have heard my grandparents talking that it will be tough for them but they will try their best. I can't see them in pain.
I can't just enjoy myself out there abroad and worry about the situation here as my father has anger issues and incase things don't go planned or I require more amount my grandparents will not be able to provide the money.
Currently my grandparents are assuring me that everything will work well.
My father doesn't earn that well. And I doubt if things will go well or not.    

I have also got an admit for a college in India.
What should I do? Should I take my grandparents money and return them later? It's their earning.
Or. Should I drop the plan and choose the college in India which is cheaper? 

Stress

Anyone at marine drive rn?

Intro

I'm feeling terrible, my license got in to custody becoz they said my helmet doesn't isi approved, I'm so afraid idk what to do , police said to get the licence i have to go to the court... And i did the same but lawyer saying their fees is 1000 rs and helmet charge is 1000 rs .. I'm a student i don't have this much money and it is my first time challan , I'm feeling terrible..also they said i will get my license after 20 days and mu license will be suspended for 3 month...my exams are coming, how am i suppose to go without my license and idk where to get 2000 rs ...plss help me I'm so afraid.

Anxiety

Is there anyone from medical field ?

My dad literally forced me to go for a job exam that was not related to my branch. I was reluctant at first but somehow I prepared and I cleared the first stage. 
So I thought I shouldn't waste time and prepare for the 2nd stage exam. 
So today my father told me the 2nd stage is really difficult and I know your preparing but not everyone can do that.
Like WHAT THE ACTUALL HEL! WAS THAT.  Why the hel! did you even force me to go for that exam in the first place. I literally kept aside everything and cleared it and now he was like you wont be able to pass the next stage.
Then why tf he was pressuring me to prepare for that.
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I feel so disheartened. Like now I am a grown up and I dont really need someone's validation or support or anything because nobody really was there for me even when I was young and I started  being my own supporting person. I dont need that. But I feel bad. Ofcourse I am going to prepare even the chances are slip because I don't like giving up without giving my best but I dont know whatever. I feel alone. I am sad 

I feel so stressed. I’m currently in my entrance exams are coming phase . I don’t know where to apply . My father wants to send me to a private college, up and down daily but no I don’t want to go there , it’s fees is much more than the placement packages . For most of my life, I’ve been a good child. I meet my friends in a gap of 3-4 months and that for 2 hours or so . Because that’s the max time I get . My parents are not strict but a little protective. My father continues to tell me that I’m dumb and won’t be able to manage anything if I opt for hostel or a college that’s far away . He’s like you don’t know how the world works today . Murders hote hai, logo ki videos viral hoti hai . I am not against him but I want to move ahead in life . I don’t want to stay stuck . I want to learn things , I want to manage stuff, I want to cry about it , I want to feel homesick but still get up . All I do is study and have no other co curricular activities. I want to learn but I won’t be able to if I stay here for the rest of my life, dependent on my parents for food,  clothes everything. Instead I want to get into a good government college , get into clubs I’ve always been passionate about but never really got the chance , I want to attend fests, make friends, find a way to earn and just learn. What scares me is that my parents will be all alone because they’re planning to send my sister to hostel since she is becoming a phone addict. Should I just suppress my dreams ? Idk . 

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