My mom is pushing me to the point where I think I might have to take drugs or start smoking to keep myself calm. I just donβt want to be around her God. Please take me away from my mom to some distant place where she wonβt be there. Itβs impossible to live with her. I feel suffocated all the time. I feel like I am dying. I wish I had a good father. I had a very good friend who helped me stay sane. But then he left suddenly and stopped talking to me. So now I am completely alone. I wish he hadnβt deserted me. I will never forgive him for this. I hate my life.