Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

My life sucks.I distance myself from everyone, I don’t talk to my friends nor they talk to me.I m in 12th standard, I don’t go to school just stay at home, in my room, study for only 2-3hrs, go to running in evening and spend the rest of the time in my bed listening to music and scrolling.
I don’t know why, but when I go outside I just can’t take it, by seeing people I always get anxious and think what they would be thinking about me.
I can’t even make eye contact with the people.
It’s all cause I think people are all good outside and compared to them I am nothing.
When I come home from outside I always become sad, after seeing the life outside. So I left going outside.
2yrs ago I was having some dreams to accomplish but now I m just fucked up,now I don’t even think about those dreams.
There’s no one whom I talk to, whom I can share my feelings, my problems,my anxiety. I don’t even talk to my family.
And then there’s a girl whom I talk to on calls, I met her in my tution (which I left) i call her daily, I kinda like her but she has a boyfriend and I know she don’t like me(nobody likes me) but i call her daily and all the time we talk she just keep telling me stories of her and her boyfriend and about how her day was, she don’t even ask me how my day was, i know she has no interest in me she just wanted someone who can hear her stories, and I was perfect for that and I know if I stopped calling her she would never call me back.
I THINK WORLD JUST FUCKED ME UP.