my heart is getting heavier, I think i'm overreacting but still it's hard to step back. 
It's ok just need to control myself few days maybe weeks

I have listen my whole life everything happens for a reason , but I don't think so that EVERYTHING happen for reason . I'm missing my father today I don't know how after 7 years I'm missing him so badly. And idk why people say everything happens for reason. I see no reason for him to leave his small kiddo alone and go somewhere I can't find him . He was so supportive in whatever I do , he always encouraged me in every little things, he was always there for me . And one day he just left like nothing happens . I miss him so much . I want to talk to him share my feelings but I can't 😔

Lonely

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Anxiety

Now I can finally use the 3 am thoughts tag

3am Thoughts

 I'm stuck between his I'm the only thing he have and i don't give a f*$k about anything attitude. I'm unable to understand what is real. 

I have no idea if me talking about this here is the right thing to do or not but I wanted to get this out of my system and I needed help . It won’t keep it long so that I don’t bore anyone into reading something really long . So here keeping is short , I was in a relationship where he broke up with me because I got pregnant and the situations got so worse that it made my health so bad that now I only have zero or very less chances of being able to conceive in future . He says that he is not responsible for any of this and this is solely my fault and I should rot in hell . I get anxiety attacks . I am not able to sleep properly. I get weird scary dreams , I have no idea when was the last time I had a peaceful sleep . My whole life got ruined because of this . I don’t know but this might sound petty but I want to take legal action against this , is there anyone who can help me with it . Also I am sacred to death because he has my pictures and what not and he says if I come at his he will ruin my life and one more thing I am scared about is that if I file a case and if my parents to get to know about it , they will shatter and I don’t want that . I don’t know what to do . It was very difficult for me to tell all this . I am still second guessing if it was the right thing to do or not . 

Relationships

When you missing someone, you should not be, is so painful. Don't know what they are upto, just coz things ended ugly. You can't talk with them, but wish to and they are not making those efforts. It's just hurting. Specially when you are travelling and alone.
No one misses me 💔

I am just to express my pain here. Plase don't bother with let's talk. Maybe some other time. I wish you doing good. 

Memories

Thinking about someone special 

Love

Netflix or Hulu shows? It can be anything at this point...

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