My grandpa - mom’s side - passed away 4 months ago. Today while we were eating, we were discussing about the family gathering happening next week and what we should bring with us.... etc. dad told my mom “ ooh it’s the first family gathering without your dad” and giggled. I know he didn’t mean to say it in harmful way but I hated him for that, because my mom start crying. 

He told her “ don’t cry he need your prayers than your crying, pray for him and he is in good place” 

Ooh I'm so sorry he said that. It's a very insensitive thing to say😭

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Ever felt that happiness or satisfaction that you get when you see smile on others face by your actions ??

That is something pure and self satisfied feeling which we can't even express properly :)

#begood #dogood

Happy

How do I stop feeling things

Anxiety

Why this "Mal piyenge" song got famous 🤧🤧

What was your dream when you were a child and what are you doing now? 🙂

3am Thoughts

I feel truly weird at the moment cause I love this girl who has been like my best friend for 6-7 years and we went on vacations togetherness I protected her at times I care for her and she for me we have been intimate with each other and after getting to the point of having intercourse with each other. I conveyed these feelings of mine and they were not accepted and it’s been like 3 months since I conveyed these feelings lots of things happened she clearly rejected me last month and it feels so weird cause she wants to continue this intimacy we have under the disguise as friends. But I don’t know I just feel so hurt why like this. She says she feels nothing for me but yet feels attracted towards me I lighten up her days and nights but she won’t accept my love more ass friends and I am actually trying to get over it cause I just fucking know I deserve to be loved the same way I wanna love someone but I can’t let it go cause I am scared of losing her and living without the intimacy we have and it’s so difficult to distance myself but I am doing it it’s just we have the same friend group the same hobbies we see each other on a regular weekly basis and in which we act like nothing happened and act like before what should I do cause I am dying inside and hate cause I sometimes think maybe I should suppress these feeling and try again after another year. But that’s stupid just horrible cause I wanna move on I have self respect to theology where I am like com on bro get over it it’s not worth it to love somoene so much who doesn’t love you back she wants everything from you but wanna give nothing that’s not acceptable. Thankss for reading this cause this is a long ass text hahahaha

Breakup

I hate my family, friends who are drifting apart, i couldn't share anything with anyone. I'm becoming more and more introvert because of my family. I just want people who loves me and have fun. When I see people around they have no issues like I'm going through. (I know someone would reply 'you do not know what others are going through' but it is clear enough) I just have hope but at times I'd break. Hoping is the only thing I could do I'm doing it for years nothing came out of it. Now I'm hoping for my college life if that sucks too ..... 
I literally have no one I'm damn lonely what can I do, different things that would make me happy? Here I've seen many people will advise to develop new hobbies. No I cannot do that I'm in 12th std. I have enough time to just breakdown and plan. I want advise from someone who has experienced something same as mine and now they're doing fine.

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