My family is getting too much complicated and destroying in front of my eyes and i can barely help them......i have one brother and 4 cousin brothers and i was afraid of them too..... because of their parents behaviour,what will happen to those kids they were really small kids of now........how come i let my family to become like this ........i don't want them to suffer......

Tanisha S. S.

Family

Family is that one thing who shld understand you, support you, accept you, encourage you, n love you.
But mine happens to be opposite. I can't help it.... Idk how to deal with it 
Very disturbing sometimes ..
Can I be adopted? I'm 17.
Things I need...
Education of my degree, n accept how I am.

I didn't mean to pry. But I confirmed what I knew all along. Family is family, I get that. But when your family doesn't think the same as you... fuck... I'm really at a loss for words right now.... fuck.

Other

i dont know how this is defined and does this happens with anyone else accept. Being a younger person in the family partiality is the thing i have seen from years at my home.  Or in other way members of the family has treated to badly / abandoned you always. Simple things like you eat the left over food let your elder sibling have food first. Do this work first then eat. About girls always no matter wat they do it is said that tum to kuch kam karti hi nai. This are some examples I have always seen my dad doing this with me.  It feels neglected. People may think its a small thing let go ignore blah blah. But what we face has effected us a lot. Our Self image is destroyed. Tell me Your  comments on this.

Life

i always knew my boyfriends family was really wealthy and he doesn’t like to talk about them but i met them on sunday for the first time. this was like an abnormal wealth. the house was huge and gorgeous, but they had security with them all the time. his family was nice but acted sort of weird towards me. it’s weird and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about this because it gives me a weird feeling i mean i never knew what they did and i never felt the need to ask but i don’t even know if i want to know now. 

3am Thoughts

I really hate everything...
I really hate how people talk behindi my back... then after that  whenever they say I am near them they always stops. 
I really hate how my cousin thinks I am making her life hard. Why? When we are still kids I've experienced what she's experiencing and yes I've cried but not really that much like she's doing like I am sort of a bad guy. 
I really hate how my cousins uniting whenever I am doing something whether its bad or good. Mostly bad. Am I that bad to not even say those words that they are saying in front of me? Am I that bad?
I really hate everything... geez. I hate those fucking plastic family of mine well not my parents and brothers for making me feel like shit everyday like everything that's happening to them is because pf me and my stupid acts. 
Yes I understand I often act sometimes like act before my mind. But is it enough for them to make me feel like this? Like I am the sole reason why they are suffering? Like they are in pain? They are making feel a worst person. 
Like seriously? I am just so fucking tired for all of this bullshits. I just want to end my life just because I am feeling worst. Like I am the worst person in the world.
Am I really bad? I always push away my little brother because it is making me feel shy and slightly awkward. I lie. I sometimes let my anger take over my supposed to be actions causing me to hurt my cousins in unintentional way but the way they viewed it was intentional. And I kind of hate my cousin too because of some reason. And I love my parents but I can't even show them how much I love them. I let them cook my meals which my family always say that I should be the one who's doing that because you know my mom have a sort of a mental illness while my father is always tired from work but because I am just a selfish teenager I can't even cook for them. I live away from our house I live  from my aunt and I don't have a good relationship when it comes to my grandmothers and relatives they always show how they are good to me but when I turn my back they always talk about me. Like I am sort of a bad kid. Like you know... I thought in America it is just normal for teenagers to act this way because of the rebel stage? But am I really rebel? I don't know what to think anymore. I feel like this is too much for me. And my parents whenver talk to them they talk like I always needed money. I reay hate everything.  Am I really bad? Maybe I am bad. They are all good anyway. And I am some sort of the worst member of the family. I am just lonely and sad and tired for everything. If I end my life will it really change anything? Will anyone cry for me? I hope this post will reach out to someone... I am really hoping. I am crying while typing this. Please.

Anger Issues

Does anyone else have toxic families (grandma, uncle, aunts, cousins, father etc.) and just wants to prove them all wrong?! Like what the heck is wrong with you guys! (i mean the toxic people) 

Physical Health

One thing I've learnt in my life is that the only people that genuinely cares for you and loves you and wants the best for you  is your family and they are the only one you can trust blindly in your life.🤎🤍🤎

Sometimes all I can think about is getting away from my family as soon as possible. And it is so not because I want freedom( Yes, I do ) but that is not my primary reason. It is because every moment in my family feels like an atom bomb is going to explode. None of my family members act close to the way they should. A dad who thinks his only work is to give financial support ( even that he doesn't do properly), a mom who wanted a perfect boy but got a girl who is a tomboy and a boy who is an exact copy of my father ( whom she does not like very much ) .And then comes a grandmother who knows even though his son is wrong will support him.So am i wrong to think such  a thing?

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