Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

My exam was supposed to be held on March but it got postponed to August …also vacancy got reduced by the govt. I used to study for this exam very seriously but after this I completely dropped my prep because vacancy in my district is almost zero .but in next 3 hrs my exam will be conducted… All my friends have studied for it even those frnd who never study for exam… I don’t know what to do now. My mother have high expectations from me and also keep telling me you will get that job… Im feeling suicidal can’t imagine what will my mother feel after knowing about the reality… One more thing is killing me is that I might score marks lower than those who never studies… The mere thought of this giving me anxiety and I’m feeling breathless. Feeling like jumping front of vehicle… Sorry for my bad English it’s not my 1st language