My ex is my best friend and she kissed a friend of hers 3 days after we broke up. I am unable to process this. I know it's killing her too because she is aware she's hurt me, I mean, she fainted in front of me crying while telling me the story so it couldn't have been easy for her too, and I do trust her at the end of the day.

But man I just don't know what to think. I probably don't have any right to be uncomfortable because we HAD broken up properly, but still man. 3 days.

It doesn't matter what it is, doesn't matter if I'm drunk as shit or whatever I know 100% I would never, ever do something like this.

I HAVE accepted her apology, but that doesn't mean I'm okay with it. I just... I'm trying to get around it but I'm unable to. I literally had to control my breathing to even type this out.

She IS my best friend, we are still going to be hanging out, traveling, etc... but this... I don't know.

Anxiety

Feeling really low Today, Breaking up with a best friend can feel worse than splitting up with your partner 😔

I need opinion of others about this....

I have a good friend...we used to talk all night....even during sleeping we connect via call so that we don't feel alone.....she became so close to me...that I had started feeling for her but never said cause...i was afraid our friendship might ended or or might not remain that craziness...anyway
For last year we haven't talk properly even for 10 min. Or meet for once....she had join college to pursue MBA....after that all this starting happening.
She finally had friends around her someone who can help her in difficult time ( as i lived in different states so I was not available all time ). 
I know she is happy and I want her be happy it just...in past it's day or night we always connected..but now it's just me only....
Sometimes I feel like maybe she doens't need me anymore.....i feel like my work here is done.....now go which makes sad.


Lonely

Just told one of my very good friend that it was hurting me being with her because of so many things. 
She is okay that I don't wanna be w her anymore. And now it's breaking me even more. 

Frustration

I don't usually make friends..but i have a best friend (best friend for me) i do all tha caring wala part for her I'm always there to help her whenever she needs me we were good but there is this another girl came now my bestie is ignoring me she is getting irritated by me and she is not answering my calls she talk with her all the time have fun with her but when it comes to me she gets angry...and that thing is making me sad and i don't know why it's hurting me 
What should I do? Should I just ignore her? But i don't have anyone else 

My best friend of 5 years betrayed me. I helped her in every possible way when she left her home I gave her everything she needed. I was not realising that she was financially abusing me. She lied to me all the time. She made a fool out of me and my cousin. She said she was clean but she was lying to me the whole time. She has done the same thing with other people too. She borrowed money from my cousin brother also. I paid for her Masters fees because I feel everyone deserve a chance to study. It’s not just about the financial abuse, it’s about lying, betrayal, hurt, emotional abuse. She made excuses of mental health to use me and other people. I don’t know how to get over this. I feel angry, hurt and confused. I go out of my way to help people but people like my friend is running this kind behaviour of me. Just needed to vent out. 

Friends

I feel so anxious and alone. The person I considered as my best friend and soulmate and I thought she is the kind of friend who will never ever made me feel bad about myself, left me. She checked my phone behind my back. She has assaulted my emotionally, verbally and manipulated me. She is an influencer and whatever she portrays on social media is fake. She is a feminazi and a very insensitive person. She judges people when someone is grieving and in pain. She has fat shamed me and victim blamed me when a guy assaulted me. I am trying to get over her and whatever she did to me. But sometimes I just can’t stop thinking about the good times we had together. 

Exhausted

What do you think about friendship?

Caregiver

I had a dear friend. Let's call her T. T and I were friends from class 9th. We landed in the same section in class 10th. We turned into best friends. Used to sit at the same desk, call each other and talk for hours.. we were called "Jai and Veeru" by our teachers. We were always together. She had another friend who had a problem with me as before me she was her best friend and used to hang out with her. On learning this, T broke friendship with her and she said to me that I value u more than her. I was happy.I had a toxic family and tough parents. I had a bad record with friendship and most used to end within 1 year. I had this fear that everyone will leave me one day. but at that time, I forgot and thought that I got a soul-sister. 
Fast forward, in class 11 we were separated as we both had different subjects. our meetings lessened but was still there after school, lunch breaks and before classes. she stopped replying to my messages and calls. I understood as classes can be hectic. it was all good till then. in the 12th, she stopped going out for lunch too. she completely avoided me. no messages, no calls. she even refused our Sunday plans and talks. She had a new friend who used to live near her house. she started hanging out with her. One day in front of me she said "I only use WhatsApp for her!" I ignored or perhaps I didn't pay any attention to be concerned. after a lot of this, one day I confronted her that why the hell are u behaving like this, why are u ignoring me?? She said that "It is not you, you are still there in my friend category, u are still on the list, the only thing is that someone else I got is better and has a position higher than u in my life, she is my soulmate." I broke, I felt cheated. but eventually, I came to peace with that, I thought its ok, a friend is also not bad, her choice. 
Then one day, when she cancelled our plan again to hang out with her new friends, I became angry and confronted her on whatsapp, to which she said, "compare yourself to X(her new bff) you shall know where u exist and where she is". i don't remember all she said.... but that hurt me, that wound is still like a sore. After that we left school, barely talked once or twice and then out of touch... its 3.5 years since then, since we left class 12th and had our last talk. 
I miss her still, I can't get over her, you can get over a boyfriend but not a best friend. I still haven't got my closure... I still want to get answered that why were I left?? What was my mistake? Many friends left me like that but I am more concerned with T... am I bad as a human being... don't I have the qualities to be loved by family or friends?? These questions often eat my sleep at night and I cry in my pillow...
These are challenging Covid times, I am so desperate to call her and ask if she is ok, but her number although deleted from my phone is still in my diary. Whenever I open it I am haunted by those experiences, some ego or fear captures me, should I call?? Why didn't she call?? Does she miss me?? She must have a lot of college friends to ask na ?? I am so in conflict and confusion... 

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