My dog died last august. She was my first pet and the first time I felt real love. She was a rescue and I only had her a little over 4 years. Most of the time it feels like she died this morning all over again. I haven’t been able to work or take care of myself since she passed. I throw up from panic attacks when I think about how long it’ll be till I see her again, if I see her again. I’m so tired of my chest aching and crying so hard I lose my breath. Nothing I do seems to help besides drugs and I don’t want to feel like that anymore. Please don’t feel like you have to say anything, I just needed to get that off my chest. I have no one to talk to about it