My college life coming to an end in few months. It is so hard to move one and go to next phase of life. I don’t even have any plans. Time really flies wen u r having a good time. I thought ill spend last few months with friends.  Go to places but this lockdwn n curfew is back. I feel lik i am losing everyone. This feeeling. I dnt wan to feel lik this. M not able to tl anyone how i feel. No one gets me. They say jus go with the flow. Life goes on.

Hey everything is gonn be fine. Even I’m in college I’m going through a very hard time too. There are gonna be better days fosho. Don’t loose hope. You will figure everything out just like u have in prev times

FOMO

Ek sapna tha or bahut hi khubsurat ❤️

Love

I feel like i want to cry, but the tears aren't coming. And the reason i want to cry is because i don't feel like studying at all. But it's the most crucial time to study in my life. For my exams are approaching, and i am need to study for my competitive exams. Today i gave a test in my tuition, amd it went horrible. Everyone in my class thinks I'm the most intelligent person, just because i scored well in my grade 10. But cant they understand that people change, i used to study so much way back then. Now I'm in grade 12, and I can't even focus for more than 45 mins. So when someone asked me if my answer matched in the test, and i said no, because genuinely it did not match. That person was like , " really?!" And i said "yeah" and she again and again asked me really really, YOURS DID NOT MATCH? I dont know why, but i wanted to curse that asshole, when I'm saying it didn't match can't you fucking understand, are you deaf or what. But obviously i can't say that. Whatever i think I ranted enough, now i should study (or at least try to) 
(Ps. I wish i could have harry styles hug me and tell me don't worry about it everything's going to be just fine) 

Stress

Uwu.

3am Thoughts

I feel great.

What are some good songs to listen for self love?

Should I send my ex girlfriend an email 7 months after our break up saying that I am sorry for how we ended ect or should I just leave it be ? 

I cant even go to school because of Acid reflux i think it called GERD
And now i feel comfortable at home and not going to school it make me feel. like im going to be a failure if i dont do hard work for study it feels like my future is blurry, the old woman even says that my brother will be successful and dont even say a word to me ( but i dont really believe much cause i know its not by what other will say its about ur action its about how u will work foer it im such a failure even sice kinder im bad at school i need motivational word


Frustration

The "electra and oedipus complex" girl. 
Please, I hope you are reading this. But that thought author and I are both 20 year old and not some toddler. We have no sexual interest in our dads nor we are jealous of our mothers. So, just because you know things doesn't mean you will sh*t it everywhere. 
Second, society do play a role in the way we think. Society do play a role in our psychological behavior. Also, no one was replacing "sociology" with "psychology". You need to enhance your reading skills but never mind. 
Third, family rules and norms shapes how we are with our parents. Things that we see our family members doing or anyone in our surrounding doing, we tend to follow them. So again, society plays the greatest role. 
Just because my parents are cool and liberal doesn't mean everyone else parents are. May be, you need to come out of your bubble and look around yourself to know the reality. For an instance, no girl child in my paternal family is as close to their fathers as I am to my father. This is simply because they were raised to maintain distance and those typical norms while I wasn't. They rarely talk to their dad and dont even show themselves up in front of them while it's totally opposite in my case. So, things work in this way. 

Not everyone is living the same life. Things differ family to family, society to society. So, next time make sure to not force your ideology into someone. That makes you look pathetic. 


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