My College course is a bust
I can’t get a job
My mother doesn’t support me
I don’t know what to do

I’m having difficulty getting even part-time.

You can't expect her to support you do part time jobs

Depression

Fine

Girlfriend

When something breaks, 
If the pieces are large enough you can fix it.
Unfortunately, sometimes things don’t break. They shatter. 
But when you let the light in, 
Shattered glass will glitter. 
And in those moments, when the pieces of what we were catch the sun, I’ll remember just how beautiful it was. 
Just how beautiful it always will be.
Because it was us. And we were magic. 
Forever.



A few lines from a movie I recently saw and instantly related. 

Growing Up

Mujhe mohabbat ka toh pata nahi 
Lekin tujhe yuh dekhna acha lagta hai,
Baatein toh hoti nahi hamari
Lekin tujhe baat karte dekhna acha lagta hai,
Waise toh mai khwaab nahi dekhta 
Lekin agar khwaab mai tu ho toh woh khwaab dekhna acha lagta hai.

3am Thoughts

Suddenly life seems less inspiring , I feel lesser of myself. I used to love to do a lot of things , stay occupied through out the day. Try out new things , learn new stuff had many hobbies. But now i just don't feel like I want to do anything. I'm just so drained out. Even the basic things i used to do with such ease i seem to find it difficult. I just want to shut down in a room and do nothing. I want to get out of this feeling. I really miss my old self.

Conflict

Don't want to think that i'm depressed. But i'm so worried for life as ive no job for a bit more than 2 months now, we can't go out (like meeting up with friends and travelling) and broke up with K about 6 months ago. i'm still so sad whenever K comes into my mind, still wishing K to be next to me. It's even more saddening to know that K has moved on and i'm still here, wishing to be with K. 

I've no one to rant those to and guess my life is this sad 

people say it's okay, past is past, you will get thru this. True, one day, i'll get thru this but I'm living in hell right now. Not spending a single day w/o crying and it didn't help a lot (at least at this moment) to stop my thoughts and have awareness of present. 

Breakup

Hello everyone.. how you feeling now??..🙂

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Guys if you take a break from this platform for few days it actually feels better. I took a 3 day break and i am doing better. 

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