My c-ptsdโs sleep issues are back again. The nightmares, the repetition of talks i had with him where he manipulated me, Gaslight, treated me like shit, like the whole abuse shit keeps repeating in my head louder and louder and i try to solve them in my sleep but I only wake up breathless and disoriented.
My mind never shuts down and when Iโm sleeping the voices get especially loud, i was almost talking in my sleep today and i woke up immediately to be rudely spoken to because my ex partner (who still lives in my house) makes everything about himself and started saying i just sneezed (in a horrendous tone and i told him, i didnโt say shit to him i was talking from my sleep and he huh-ed me and got back to his whatever the fuck he does) and it has only flipped me out more. I tried sleeping more but couldnโt so woke up. His gaslighting
Hey, thats a lot you are going throughโฆ You can always reply here if need any help.
Hey thanks, i appreciate your kind words. ๐ผ
All here to helpโฆ Donโt feel hes hesitate to reply whenever you wantโฆ I am not just saying for formalities purposeโฆ
If you donโt mind can i ask why do you still live with him?
Understood. ๐
And itโs very complicated to explain here really. I still donโt understand it completely myself. But itโs got to do with trauma bonding, my history of abuse and Narcissistic family system to say the least.
And also 4 years weโve been together
Thats must bde very hard, you are brave.
Yes it absolutely is. I appreciate your empathy and understanding. ๐ผ
How are you doing rn