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My brother killed himself around a month ago, my mother just attempted suicide and is being committed to a psych ward. My younger siblings have no idea what’s happened except that mommas sick.
I need to put in my two weeks at the job that’s killing me slowly. I’m out two or three times a month at this point and can feel myself growing resentful.
I have no idea what to do. I want to scream and burn everything. I’m so angry. I want to get drunk and hit someone or crash my car or do something but I know it will accomplish nothing.
I want to bury myself in someone’s arms. I want to be held and touched and kissed. I feel so alone. I just need someone to hold me and tell me they love me and are never going to leave