My boyfriend lied to me and I broke up with him. He was sorry for what he did. I found something major. But after knowing all of it I didnt respond to him & blocked him from every platform. He tried for 3-4 days but now he is posting his shirtless stories on instagram. Why is he doing all this? He is doing everything I hate & he doesnt used to do when we were together. What happened in 5-6 days that he is not even trying now? I didnt respond to any of his texts at that time. But what about the actions he is doing now? He used to promise me forever & future. 

Relationships

Depressed


Lonely

What to do when you feel like talking to a long lost friend? 

Friends

Hi people🥰 How are you doing?

Affirmations

From the time that I could remember I've always picked myself up when I felt low. Sometimes I feel like I'm the weakest person in a room or that I am so mentally unstable because of which I am what I am today , broken and dumb and a disappointment. But then I think of all those times when I, alone, dragged myself from that dark room by all means possible and I would get back on my feet. Its never easy and only the strongest of people can do that. AND I. AM. STRONG. (don't let anyone let otherwise - note to self).
People always say how we should talk to other people. They say 'I'm here for you ' and 'talk to me'. But most of the time I never do. I always try not to talk about my problems to other people (also here problems means the stuff that's way bigger than you think). And the reason I do that, which according to many isn't healthy, is because they never understand. I spent a lot of my energy talking and explaining the reason of my messed up mental health just so they can say 'I understand' or 'it's okay it'll get better' or some advice that I obviously thought about before. I mean I get it, they are helping me, they are putting the effort of listening to me and they don't have an ulterior motive other than to help me, yes. But I'd much rather just talk to myself in the mirror, because at the end of the day only I know me. Unless my friends are professional counsellors or something. Then yes I'd spend money to talk about my problems because they can help. But other than that I always try not to spend my energy on them. This is probably why I don't have much friends.
See, I have friends. I wouldn't say I was popular in school but they all liked me. But somewhere along the way I started pushing them all away I guess.
My mom always used to say I don't know how to choose friends and that I choose the worst friends always. My mom used to say a lot of things to be honest and they're true but they hurt. If I get into that detail then this wouldn't end here. I'd be writing a 200 page book about the problem I have with my mom and my family. I think its like this everywhere. Every brown household. The rebellious daughter and her even more rebellious mother (imagine the chaos). Leaving that to some other time to discuss.
But basically, all I want to say is, it's not easy being alone, but after 19 years of my life if there's one thing I learned it's that being alone with yourself is so much better than being with people. I don't trust people. The moral of my story. 

Mental Wellbeing

Waking up everyday with sounds of my parents fighting with each other is so traumatising. 

Exhausted

anyone ? chalo let's talk 

3am Thoughts

My brain fuckin hurts 
I hate him

What I feel for you is love and only love. In your presence, my heart is happy and I feel whole, stronger, wiser and more confident.

I have never felt like this toward anyone. You inspire me to reach deep into my heart to love you with all the passion and intimacy that is in me. Without your love, I’m like a tree that can never blossom.

It’s not just what I feel for you, it’s what I do not feel for anyone but You.
What I feel for you plants the fire of happiness in my heart and brings peace to 
my mind. That is what I feel for you

If I know what love is, it is because of you. You make me feel like nothing can ever go wrong in life.
You are the source of my joy, the center of my world and the whole of my heart.

Hand to hand, palm to palm. Just hold me in your arms. I love you with all my heart 'Till the very day it falls apart.

When i m with you its like nothing else matters. When i m with you i feel somthing soo special that i have NEVER felt like with any other girl. when i m with you i m always happy. when you hold me i feel your love.

I may be young, But my heart is strong. I know what love is. It's my name and his. You make all the problems float away, No matter how was my day. I love our heart-to-heart chats When our beats connect And when my head starts to fade back From when the blue sky Turns sacred black.

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