My biggest flex in my life is that I'm not afraid to lose people anymore. 💢

i thought the same thing until one of my friends had an accident and died for a few seconds and i was one of the last people he talked to.

3am Thoughts

Do you know what I have decided to just stop acting like a fucking rose who needs perfect pH perfect soil, perfect sunlight to grow and flourish. I’m gonna be a fucking dandelion. OK, I’m gonna flourish in concrete and chaos and terrible soil and no sunlight and still fucking shine.

I feel empty inside. 
And no empty vessels don't make noise, it's actually heavier than feeling anything.
I don't know, it just sucks.

Exhausted

I feel like I want to baby Meredith. And treat her like a baby. ￼￼

Love

Most of the time I cry in silence. I never have anyone to talk to, house is toxic. Who knows how to cope

Depression

Now I'm missing someone whom I regret for not notice his presence 3 years ago. 

lately I've been seeing nightmares. and to tell you they be nightmarish nightmares! 
disclaimer: i not struggling with my mental health. it's pretty cool.
and that makes it even more confusing as to why i am having bad dreams. 
most of the time, they're about someone being murdered. and in my dreams, no body listens to me when i try to warn them. it's so frustrating! 

i wake up in the middle of night in cold sweat. and i can't go back to sleep. the nightmare replays in mind on repeat... 

Dreams

It feels like no body loves me , that the problem lies in me . Feel like ending my life i am so lonely and broken

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