My bf and i are finally okay. Im not gonna make anymore problems gosh. 

I did talk to a guy which was way too young and didn't tell him 

But i was going to tell him but then i lied coz i texted him that im gonna go to sleep but didn't instead i talked to this young boy

I was and i didn't cheat coz i never flirted with that guy

Plus my bf and i do omegle when we are bored 

3am Thoughts

Aah, I had rough day
Started with very bad sore throat, my friend seems to ignoring me, had 2 fights over parking, couldn’t complete my work on time(because of work load), Didn’t even got time to ate lunch.

Worst thing about day was My friend whom I used to talk to her daily but Today i felt like Im forcing her to talk as I drop message everyday and she is replying my msg just so I couldn’t get hurt
But today I stopped myself to see if she can text first but that didn’t happen

Mann!
I hope I find right people who share same energy as me in this new year

There is no language in this world to describe how beautiful you are <3

Life is a game 
So play it like a pro. 

Compassion

can you tell how do I find people online , make friends online...because due to covid I'm stuck at home ...and I just wanna interact with people .

Friends

I feel i'm losing my friends. They are disappointed in me since i don't spent time with them. As a girl i'm always awkward with boys. It all started when my girl friends started hanging out with guys in campus. They are all wonderful guys , one of my friend's boyfriend and his friends. They together make a nice gang.
My friends want me to hangout with them , apparently those guys heard a lot about me from my friends but never met me as i always give excuses and remain at room. 
    I know i'm belittling myself. I been thinking i'm not smart and beautiful like my friends. It must be a nuisance to those guys , my presence. I do wanna let go my inferiority complex and wanna experience fun and warm friendship. But i always shut my self. 

Body image

I’m feeling pain and i know I’m just hurting myself
My boyfriend of 7 years just found out he said a son with a girl he cheated on me with 4.5 years ago. She is now divorced with her husband and my boyfriend think it’s because of the kid and my boyfriend want to help them. He wants to be involved in the kid life. He wants to help the mother while staying with me. He ask if i can accept this situation and if I can’t i can go. Now idk if he’s loved her or liked her before and idk if it’s truely a one night stand or not. And i keep having so many questions for myself. And he keep closing up on me and avoiding my questions and telling me I’m pushing him away by asking those questions. I know the easiest way for me is leaving him but i love him a lot. And i really hate to think that if I left him the other girl would have him all to herself. (Funny note she fucking have the same name as me) and every time he call me by my name now i hate it. I hate my name that come from his mouth now. Am i too paranoid like he said? He told me he love me till the end of his life but won’t marry me, blaming on our financial situation. I want to fight for us but idk if there will be just us in the future. It’s so blue now 🫣

Boyfriend

Hello everyone 
Since a long time, me and boyfriend have had discussions about how to live after we get married. So apparently, I have a very good equation with my mum, I share everything with her and he doesn't have that equation with his parents but when I said I want live independently after marriage, he got upset for 4 days straight and today he told me that you know I can't live without my family but I will not force my decision on you at all. I am numb. I love him dearly but idk what to do now. 

Relationships

Good times come and go
Happy moments come and go
Trying times would come and go

No matter how bad it is, Hang on!!!!
Be kind with yourself.

For this too shall pass ❤️❤️❤️


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