My "best friend" didn't even put a story for me on my birthday as she said she doesn't put stories with guys on her Instagram and also said she doesn't have any pictures of us together while there are hundreds of them, but put up a story with a guy she doesn't even consider as close as i am to her. I know it seems childish to think about such stuff, but it's hurtful and makes me sad. 
I am clearly not as important for her as she wants me to believe i am. She continuously puts me on a pedestal while i give her the priority. 

I am now, everything is becoming so clear now

I feel sorry for you, i really do! Mine even fought with me and called me a miserable human being 

Always choose to believe action over words.

Friends

I feel like a failure, career wise

Depression

Its been over a year now after me and my mother broke contact. Because every time we would sleepover at my grandmas house, they would always be drinking and screaming, hurting each other, pulling each other’s hair, crying and just scary. I was just tired, and those memories are glued in my head. It was was my breaking point when my dad told me that the police had found “illegal substances” in my mothers house, and I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I think about this almost everyday, wondering if I made the right choice even tho every time I look in the mirror I just see my mother. It’s just shit

Alcohol

My classmate used to have a crush on me and I kind of rejected him cause I thought I wasn’t ready for dating. Now this year he has been ignoring me and people say that he has gotten over me which is good for him but we used to talk so much. He was like my best friend almost. Then when I heard he had feelings for me we kinda ignored each other cause other were making fun of us like that we are a couple. I told them many times that I don’t like him and don’t ship us but they still did. I feel some sort of guilt for not dating him some how. Do you know why?

Love

Idk know when I end up being so self conscious n when I develop  of insecurities. All I know was , that life was harsh n ppl were just worst I never met anyone who didn't contributed in making things worse for me both mentally n physically. I been through a trauma of losing someone close n then being blamed for it. I'm the same person who was bullied, harassed by ppl whom I trusted the most, even I had a totally messed up family n even I have childhood traumas by getting beaten up by my parents.
Seriously things I can't even imagine of had actually been a part of life n what's worst is the fact that I can't get over all this I'm struggling each and every day to  overcome all this but tbh I just can't it's really hard n being all alone in the journey is even more heart breaking.
I don't have anyone to be called as a friend or family cause I never got any true ones or I was so blind that I couldn't  see the difference n I end up loosing true ones . It's just I only got fake ppl around me who have issues with my existence so they try their best to make my life miserable.
I feel so exhausting at times by the fact that I literally got no one except me in this long n tiring journey of life , it's just loneliness and sorrow which is following me. 
And now I feel that I'm so done with everything and I don't find any good reason to keep on livin'.
It's just negative thoughts which have r constant in my head which bothers me alot n no matter what I do I can't escape it and even I can't bare it. 

Frustration

i think i’m a narcissist.

Narcissism

3am Thoughts

Your favourite Hindi song ??

Music

People these days donot break glasses accidentally in the kitchen they rather prefer breaking your trust and call it an accident!!

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