Mohabbat Rahi chaar din zindagi mein ,
Raha chaar din ka asar zindagi bhar ! 

Love

wanna be freinds?


Friends

I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

3am Thoughts

I don't know but I can't stop stressing about everything going on around with me. I feel like all options are open but they are not for me. I am financially so restricted. Even the travelling cost makes me worried 😔 God..Life is so hard right now

Anxiety

This week has been tough, the stress of everything has led to some bad memories and emotions coming up. I have this constant feeling of wanting to tear my skin off and just get out of my body. I've always struggled with low self-esteem and hatred toward how I looked, but I think this might be different. When I was young I was raped by a family friend, many years have passed since then, but I think it may have something to do with this feeling. Along with this, when I was no more than 6 or 7 my uncle molested me, multiple times. I have also struggled with on and off depression, erratic moods, and self-harm since my teen years. This all lead up to me (as a teen) becoming extremely active in online communities, I got close to one girl, who later committed suicide and blamed me. After that, I was shunned and got death threats until I left that community, during that my only support was my boyfriend at the time. I had started getting sexually active by choice at a young age, around 14. Two years later the relationship ended suddenly and badly, leaving me to fend for myself. During our breakup, he insisted that I was abusive, selfish and that I was a terrible person. I believed him and tried to better myself, only ending with my self-esteem getting lower and lower. Even now I'm still struggling with these issues, not believing I deserve companionship or life, and this want to just leave my body. I don't know how to sort out everything and how to react to them anymore. I just want everything to stop and for people to understand and not give me the whole, "Aw, don't feel that way" crap. I want peace and to just be ok. 

Breakup

Crush

कुछ बहुत बुरी, नकारात्मक और परेशान कर देने वाली किसी बात को रात भर सोचते रहना, और सुबह उसी चिंता में बिना-मन के ऑफिस, कॉलेज या स्कूल चले जाना!  मन मे दुःख-दर्द लिए लोगों के सामने मुस्कुराने का दिखावा करना,,,, क्या आपकी जिंदगी भी ऐसी ही है,,? 
यदि हां तो इससे निकलने के लिए आप क्या उपाय अपना रहें है.......? 

I am good for nothing 😔

Bass ek baar koi mil jaaye, where YOU FEEL THE LOVE, idk why but itna confidence h ki firr puri duniya yaad rkhegi.

Tagda wala affair

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