Mental fog and depression, we are strong but we need someone to just be there, who is not judgemental and just listens....

Shabana S.

3am Thoughts

https://open.spotify.com/track/6TSH6vh6KkSfExHM6evcbr?si=RoS-nViLTM-17B1XyIEepQ


If I could hold you for a minute
Darling, I'd go through it again
I would still be surprised I could find you, darling
In any life
If I could hold you for a minute
Darling, I would do it again

Music

***Trigger Warning**
I am having this constant thought of killing myself, last night one thing was on repeat more in my mind "cut that blood vein" I don't know how did I not do it 

Mental Health

Today didn't start off good was having pains in my chest all morning and headaches I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning.
To talk about my blood work and the headaches fro this vaccine I got.
With all the deaths I've went thru this year and family Freud case I don't know how much mental health problems I can get going through.
But on a positive not now I can talk to people on this site about things daily with paying for a over priced therapist I just wish I had one on one interaction now I miss companionship so much now and I'm not even talking about sex.
I miss walking through the park holding someones hand going out to dinner just talking about our problems.
I don't see that happy in my life now sometimes I feel my life is over at 52 I go to bed every night thinking  I'm not gona walk up anymore.

Depression

I hate being told that I messed up in something by someone, when it was SAID SOMEONE WHO PUT ME IN THAT SITUATION TO BEGIN WITH!
AND THEN THAT PERSON PROCEEDS TO TRASH TALK ME BEHIND MY BACK!!

Failure

Anyone up?

Why stress over someone who doesn't even text to see if you are alright?

We feel happy when someone
remembers us. We feel special when someone gives us attention. But the question is are they just comfortable or there's more than that?

There could be a reason why people like to talk to you. You could be someone who is willing to lend your ear to the problems of others. Someone who gives help when they're in trouble. Someone who spends so much time just to check if they are okay. Someone you share with the same interest that makes you
smile. Once you felt that, you developing some feelings toward that person. You thought that it is already "love". Yes, it could be but not the way you think. People open up to you because you are trustworthy. They are comfortable talking anything about themselves because they know you will not judge them. There's nothing special with that because in the first place you're friends. 

We tend to make assumptions without asking. It's better to know your place than to expect. Expectation leads to
disappointment. Don't assume unless
otherwise stated. Know your worth. If you are not with the same path, clear it with them.

Friends

Why is everyone depressed here , just be happy and yea if bored talk to me lol 

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