Memories bring back you

3am Thoughts

I deserve so much better

All too well on repeat rn 😀

Sometimes I wonder if I deserve to live

Depression

Can't get those memories out of my mind..!!😶

Memories

You will never know the value of a moment…
Until it becomes memory.

Quotes

I trusted you with all my feelings, my emotions and my secrets. I showed you my vulnerable side. All i wanted from you was to be my friend, but instead you just stopped caring just because i told you that you're drifting away from me? You know how much i valued, loved and adored you. How and why did you stop loving me? You said you'll never leave me alone and will never stop loving me, but now you are the one who makes me feel alone & unloved. Where did it go wrong? I am hurting here and you just seem fine. You always gave me priority, and now you probably wouldn't care if i am there or not and it hurts. I loved that you trusted me with yourself, told me every little thing, acted clingy to me, made me feel wanted. But now all that is completely gone.it hurts to see you slowly turning into a stranger right in front of my eyes. You say i still hold the same place in your life, i know that's very much a lie but ofc i cant confront you anymore. I just miss you because you just don't seem like "you" anymore.

How to forget, howsoever people have been with you in past and live in the current. How to delete the bad memories to make a new better ones. 
How to bring the same enthusiasm to live n enjoy life in them as in you.
How can someone forget living!

Adulting

Reality 

I don't know why I liked you
I don't know why I met you
I know I made the first move
because I expected something out of it. 
I thought you are different
I thought we can connect. 

You laughed at my jokes 
You cried at my pain
You gave me advice 
You gave me a friend. 

But I knew we could never be more,
You were not different.
I thought you were grey
but realised you are just simple 
Black and White. 

I made the first move 
and you just tagged along.
I was the one who ended it-
I just wanted you to say
that you wanted to Stay.
But I said "Stop" 
and you never turned back. 

Soon you became my escape
I wanted you to stay forever.
I can never forget you.
I do miss you.
I let you go
and you didn't stop me. 

But I know,
You did right by yourself.
We were never meant to be 
each other's destinations,
I was just a milestone on your way. 

Why do I expect you to reminisce me 
when I ended it?
Why do I expect you to reach out to me
when I bid you goodbye? 

I know now,
I liked you because you seemed like the one who would change for me. 
You were simple,
nothing exceptional, 
You had no drama,
seemed quite naive,
but supportive.
I was wild 
so I wanted to be the one to show you life. 

I was young
I thought people meet 
and it just clicks
and the rest is history.
I was not wrong 
but that's an exception.
Generalisation is, love is as simple 
as unlove. 
Noone will stay if you ask them to leave
they won't cry
they won't beg
they will walk away
and never come back. 

I met you when I was at the edge
I learnt hard lessons 
Now I came a long way.
I know now,
Noone teaches anyone anything
everyone is discrete
they learn their way 
on their own. 

I can't help but wish 
you knew me now. 

I wish we could meet every midnight 
and I could drench my sorrows into you.
I'm that selfish 
but I wish you could still be my escape. 

I could never truly be yours
despite it all
You were never enough for me. 

You were just time to tick by 
in reality's maze. 

B.

(pla do tell me how is it, and a prequel to this one is on my page too under the name "STATION")









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