Meditation is where it begins. Then one after the other new doors, new quests keep opening.

INFINITY 

Life

Ghar mein siblings ki presence alag hi hoti hai. Aur yeh baat unke na hone par hi pata chalti hai..(my younger sister went another city for her studies today)🫤

I hv an exam Tom and i hv no will to study and honestly I hvnt studied before but that's not the issue it's just that I don't wish to study no thoughts distract me it's just blank and empty mind. I am holding my book and i keep reading yet i don't understand a word.
What do I do? Any tips?

Exam

my next relationship better be my last im tired of telling people my favorite color

Relationships

Really wish that I can found my confidence to chase people that I like. 

I hope time paints your colors into a worthwhile sight
Life gently unties the knots woven inside your mind
All your misread feelings soon meet with true words
So you begin to believe that you have a place in this world. 
Yes someone needs you in this world. 

Alcohol

There are days where I find myself frightened of what us to come. Where I am afraid if the goals and dreams I want to achieve will fly away from my grasp ... the fear of possibilities.

3am Thoughts

Everyday for the past few years, I’ve been telling myself “one more day.. just one more day.. I wanna talk to my mum, dad and bro just one more day.. I wanna love my bf for jus one more day.. one more day.. I can do this..”.
Today, once again, I lie down on my bed beside my window, contemplating for a few hours, and just telling myself one more day... but life is slowly falling apart for me. My best friend has mental health problems and thinks about ending things too, my bf has life problems and thinks leaving me would be better for us, I am slowly going back to thinking why am I studying for a piece of paper that helps me find a job to suffer even more and my mind jus going into a very very dark place again. I’m so so so tired of pretending to be ok and happy and normal in front of family and friends, so very tired. 

Please don’t reply “face the hard times” “be positive” “tell someone” “seek help” “life goes on” “it’ll be ok” “sadness will end” PLEASE. Please don’t. It doesn’t help. 
A whole paragraph of positive words and encouragement doesn’t help. Neither does harsh words. I’m the only one that can stop myself from ending things.

I’m just here to tell someone my feelings and thoughts anonymously. Maybe look for someone who is going through the same thing as me right now. 

Suicidal Ideation

Random thoughts about my recently ex boyfriend, does he love another girl except me? Does he still love me? Will he be back some day? Why doesn't he understand me?  Does he love his junior?  Does he still think about me?
just random thoughts.. random pain full thoughts. 



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