me and my dads side of the family dont really speak, but I try, i do put a fucking effort, even if its small. I texted my cousin, yknow the usual how are you, and he said tired from work. Then I was like we should all hang out, like all of us cousins together at your moms house since its spring break and i dont have school right now. He just mentioned his job again, and ignored what I said. Then I was like yea man work must tough, and he left me on open. I feel sick to my stomach, these people do not want to see me. It gets me in a bad mental state, i start spiraling downwards in my own toxic thoughts, i begin to think that i should disspear
There is a bond between cousins … and you don’t have that bond… so do not force it…
I am also not comfortable with my cousins(from father side)… for a time period they tried to blend but it does not happen… it takes time and trust…
I am sure you won’t be comfortable sharing your secrets with them…
So let it be… do not force it… do not think about it
