Maybe I should stop thinking my friend. I've fallen when I should have not.
What's better?
Tell her or Keep it and move on?
But still, I'm happy that I like her even if she's in a relationship right now😔

I Dont Know

What if it become a reason to put awkwardness in our friendship? I think I will be badly hurt. I like to stay with her for a long time. 

Actually your are overthinking this thing a lot......and you have already created awkwardness. You should tell her first or else you would suffer a lot than that...

We've been friends for 9 years. And I am one of her close friends that's why I know she's seeing someone. She's always on my mind for almost 2 years. 

Yow buddy, it's very common that we like someone very close to us ....and in turn they have not .......chill bro.... everything happens for a reason......if you haven't expressed yourself with her....then go on....and express yourself thats all you can do......chill buddy 

Love

Trying so hard to keep staying strong in my boundaries even when I’m challenged again and again. I know it will get easier but today I am so exhausted. 

Exhausted


I’m having a hard time. Do grandparents love their grandchildren they see once a month of once a year or so? I know it’s a weird question, but I just need confirmation.

3am Thoughts

when you do your mascara do you open your mouth or no ? 

I've unlocked a feeling that I myself couldn't understand. 

Here's my story:

Everyday felt like forever, every alone time felt worse. Some nights I would just sit on my bed in the dark, humming songs I don't recognise. Or even start tearing at nothing. Some nights I would wake up at 3am and just couldn't go back to sleep. Some nights I would cry my eyes out, silently hoping someone would hear my cries. 

It's sad that my parents have no understanding of what mental health is. Or at least if they do, all they'll do is to judge. As if the person isn't feeling bad enough. Mental illness isn't something new to people. People just chose to view it as out of the norm. 

They had no idea what was really going on inside my head, they don't even know I'm struggling. They have no clue at what I would want to just do to myself. I don't know why I turned so weak, life was just getting too much for me. Often I find myself staring into space, I couldn't concentrate on what I should be doing. Every morning was fear, anxiety, and then numbness. I would carry on with my life as if nothing has ever bothered me. Everything would seem fine, but I am not. Nothing is fine. This feeling, I don't know what it is. I couldn't get it checked. I couldn't talk to anyone about it and its killing me.  I don't want to get judged by my own parents who couldn't understand what anxiety means or that depression doesn't just means I want to die. I don't want answers just cause they have to answer to my cries. 

I want to feel alive again. I want to be able to tell people that I am fine, and actually feeling fine. Yes sure, I can laugh, I can joke, but after the moment's gone, I'm back to where I started again. And it scares me. I don't know why I no longer feel things that I know I should. 

I remember the time I cried on the bus on my way home. That shit was embarrassing yet I still did it again a few days later. I don't understand how I can't control my thoughts or my emotions. I hate how I cry so easily over the smallest things. 

All I need is a safe place, a place where I don't get judged, a place I know I'm not alone. I need somewhere I can be who I am. I need somewhere I can express myself. 

Why does things don't happen when I am positive about that thing and why do things happen when I am negative about that particular thing? 

Confusion

My ex liked to explore new places one day she said she knew  a place from where you can't come back I got all excited and stuff then she took me to the lowest point in my life 🥲

Just saw my ex across the street she didn’t she me but I wanted so bad to speak with her to hug her I was overwhelmed with emotions she ask me to respect her space so I didn’t say anything I just watch her as if she was a stranger 

Breakup

I think my biggest insecurity is regarding gender conformity. I don’t fit into the ideal Indian girl standards at all. This isn’t a ‘I’m tomboyish and society doesn’t accept me for it’ situation, even though that’s what I thought it was a few years ago. The thing that bothers me is that even though I would like to be feminine, my genetics seem to have taken that possibility away from me. I look like my dad, and in that way, I look quite masculine. The short hair, hairy legs and broad hands and feet - they don’t make it any better. I know I don’t have to fit into the cookie cutter standards, but that knowledge doesn’t me from feeling a pang in my heart every time I see a really feminine woman. 

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