Loving someone from afar is more beautiful and satisfying than loving someone you know to be there. One sided love is more pious, real and satisfactory because you don't know what the other person feels for you, and honestly it doesn't matter. What matters is that you can spend your life loving them and getting hurt and seeing them happy is what you need the most. It's the most beautiful feeling in the world, and it's true. 

Relationships

Dear ex best friend
with me losing you,

I also lost the one  

* who was able to detect my bad mood and change it to good, in no time.
*who would be ears,
whenever I needed to be heard.
*who,my empty heart would look for,
whenever it needed a refill of love.
*who would dial me out,
in the middle of the night,
just to cry over the picture 
her crush posted with some other girl.
*who would save a seat for me in class.
*who would lend me her hotspot, charger, earphones, hoodies, sneakers and her immense support and understanding.

*who would share her ott platforms’s subscription with me.


 Dear ex best friend,
Losing you was never easy for me because losing you straight away meant,
I no more have you,
to get my snacks, stuff, pain and securities stolen away from me.

Loss

Phir se udd chala,
Udd ke chorda hai jahana niche main tumhare hu ab hawale. 

Poetry

Loving him is a mistake but for now I want to commit this mistake...

3am Thoughts

Your actions and words define who you are.

Affirmations

I have a crush on a boy when I was in my 10th class and he is a bit popular it is not like that I don't talk to him talk and even he replied very nicely but in 12th I get to know that he already has a girlfriend then I don't cry because my heart is crying from inside. It feels very bad when you like someone and that person is already in a relationship with other people 

Crush

Hi I'm new here...To start nice conversations 

today i told my best friend on how i felt about him and we have had a past before but it didn't work out because it was when covid started so there so no way. and now that i told him how i still felt and him just not saying anything back, just makes me feel like i wasted my time and i cant even explain how i feel. one thing is i regret saying anything i should have just stayed quiet. 

I wanted to open up about this for a long time but I never fell the need to. I always kept it within myself fearing judgement of others. But now is the time. If you can understand my situation and provide me some solutions, I will be ever grateful.
It's been one year since my colleges closed and I'm taking online classes from home for a year now.
My dad, I cant even judge his character,. Sometimes he is very caring, and sometimes he shouts a lot and abuses me ,my mom and my sister for no reason.
He is very very short tempered and has  always been .I can never tell anything to my dad, he doesn't care about what I'm doing, how I'm feeling, he just want me to do best in studies.
My mom is very caring but she also short tempered very much, same for my sister. Hence I never have an option of opening up to them. Whenever I tell them anything, they scold me or use it against me.
As I'm in home, my sister fights with me every day and she pinches me hits me for every silliest reason. They hit me if I don't do anything as per their liking. Am a major now and i still feel treated like a child. No one respects me or my freedom. And my body is full of red marks from my sister hitting me. Mind you, she is my younger sister. She fully knows that i hate people touching me and that i wont hit back.my father and my mom fight at least once a week and create a complete ruckus in the home. The fight are extremely abusive physically and mentally. My parents make me and my sister watch it(we cant even be in our room doing our work).whenever my parents fight it ends with my mom end up apologizing even if its my dads fault. My dad punishes us 3(me my mom, and my sister) by asking us to do 100 squats.Everytime.Once my parents were fighting on phone and my dad asked us to do 100squats and send the video recording via WhatsApp. It do be like that. My parents fight everywhere(even my relatives know this), I know that they wont take divorce and  but their fight are extremely abusive and sick.
i cannot tell u every time that I've done that(squats) how sore my leg feels for the next couple of days.
My mom is no better.She fights with my dad every often and then goes back to him like nothing happened.She manipulates us and makes us respect our dad despite his behavior.
i hate being in my house and feel abused every day by my family. I feel trapped and i feel like i have no freedom. I also feel myself getting irritated very soon and feel like I'm chained in my house. After lockdown i never spoke much with my college friends' and have developed trust issues.
I feel sad and lonely.
I know for a fact that if my college reopens and if i go back to my college hostel, I won't face this issue. But that seems far from reality and as the days progresses(as covid cases are increasing) i find the situation unbearable. I feel abused by my family.
Suggestions are welcome!

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