Lost $10000 in stocks this week. Now i realize i suck at stock market😭

Anand Chaurasia

760378(rupees) this much money you have lost. Man you have to stop investing in stocks. Try something else or take expert's help. 

I know bro. Losses are still a part of the game but this sudden drop was unexpected. 

It was my long term portfolio. I should start putting it now onwards. 

Adulting

u can't recover from sadness in one day 
happiness is a like a seed in ur sadness may be u are not seeing it growing now but trust me  it will give u a luscious fruit 

Self Love

Have you ever wished for a 'RESET' button in your relationship? If yes, what's the one thing you would like to reset?

Relationships

Abyone who has already read Reminders of him by Colleen hoover? I desperately want to talk about it...🥲

Books

Some random thoughts of mine:
 1.)I always wonder, when people text anyone after so long, do they think that other person might think- he/she just wanted to stay connected so that when the time comes he/she can ask for a favour? (Though it's wrong as people often time don't want to be judged like this, so they won't judge you like that, or maybe i am wrong as selective contemptuous prejudiced judgement is what humans do.) 
 So Even if they somehow get over this feeling, do they think i might get into their bad books as all this while i have been invisible? Or maybe not because if i put him/her in my place, this self-conscious thought goes the same.
 What if they don't wanted to be remembered or bothered now? , Probably i should not text anyone as the same monotonous conversation will happen and eventually they neglect this conversation.
 So what if i had maintained periodie coversation? if i had maintained periodie coversation, monotonous though, doesn't it mean the same ?, that there is a reason staying in contact? Or maybe not, they just don't wanted to forgotten- that's what I think what all people do. No wait- doesn't this mean we all are masquerading ourselves in the pretext of being remembered when all this while we all want someone to ask for help in crisis? If this is true, what is the point of having so many as the more people one will have, the more they will get into the desperation and hatred of being used probably, if they had helped and when time came they didn't get the same in return?
 Do people think that if they text someone and ask them how they doing, Don't he / she think that they don't even wanted to be asked- how he/she is doing? Maybe because they don't want to talk, if this is true then why do they remain in contact?, Just to deceive themselves that they have people when all this while all they do is neglect and try to find someone with whom their vibe will match?(vibe: which i think is nothing but a reason to deny the reason that somewhere it's their assumed hierarchy- he/she is below that status to even considered to have a conversation with), if yes then do they judge themselves? and with what rationality ? We all have different personalities, so what would one achieve finding person similar to themselves, probably because they want less conflict. If this is true then why do relationships get boring, if finding someone like you is the goal. Doesn't this mean they have never really liked themselves?
 2.) I wonder, if i wish someone, do they really accept that or they just pretend that they felt good after seeing my message?
 Fuck, i must not think 😅 or all will be left with thoughts😵😵😂😂

Overthinking

Bad addiction 😔

Addiction

Last night, I had a major breakdown. I had a huge fight with my mom and at that time I was already going through difficult stuff mentally and I was overloaded with the workload from school. I had enough because my mom wasn't trying to understand my side and keeps making me the bad person so I screamed at her to just kill me because I am so fed up with everything around me I wanted to end my life. She got mad at me and hurt me physically by pulling my hair, my grandfather had to pull us away. I didn't care if she hurt me physically because she has been hurting me emotionally/mentally for years. After that, I just kept screaming and begging her to just kill me just end it now because I don't want to continue any longer, I didn't care if the neighbors could hear us, I wanted them to know everything. She ran to the kitchen and took a knife and I was so ready that she would stab me then and there, but not she gave me the knife and told me to go ahead and kill myself now. That moment I felt numb because I realized that my mom does not have an ounce of love for me anymore. I always used to convince myself that she's doing the things I found annoying out of love like nagging me and stuff like that. But that moment hit me so much until today it's been replaying in my mind. I could've died honestly if it wasn't for my uncle he stopped me. I wanted to die, so my mom would be ashamed of everyone. She was always the type that cared about what people thought of her. She was plastic in front of everyone, pretended to be perfect in public. She was caring towards my brother and me in public. She would posts on social media about our achievements but she never praised us privately. When I showed her I was Dean's Lister, she immediately asked for a copy of my certificate so she can post it on her social media. Not once did she hugged me and said I'm proud of you, or say congratulations, nothing. She just wanted to boast. I don't like my mother. At this point, I don't see her as a mother anymore, but just a stranger. 

Motherhood

Can't get over my breakup. Career is going down the drain. Please help. 

Breakup

My world only revolves around my husband, Ive been working from home for four years and I don't really have much friends to hang out with. Lately I notice my husband change and Im afraid that he is falling out of love on me. I'm scared. 

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